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I'm pissed the fuck off right now!

Ain't no way in this world!

Well, kill me now and let me be judged already, because what in the ACTUAL FUCK!

Imagine you met this was the way you met the girl right? Just a random way of meeting. I was buying a hot dog right outside the campus gates and then I see her pass by me. Since we were in the same class but never talked before, I went up and said the classic " Hi, hello. Nice to meet you" and all that. Innocent, starry eyes of curiosity and wonder. She ain't exactly a 10/10 when it comes to facial appearance or a 10/10 in the body build either but she alright. We knew each other's names and that is how the nonsense began.

She was young , but so was I.  I wasn't into her like that, with the way she was slightly suggestive. What with her trying to sit on my lap or being a bit too close to me. I didn't mind however, just let her behavior slide but checked her when needed to. But I will admit, it was fun , us messing around with each other. But even I know not to let it go too far. Not that too far anyways. And it has been like so. For almost 2 years.

I know, dear reader that you are asking this, 'Why didn't I make it official?' or 'Why not ask her out?'

Bitch, you think I haven't tried? But all attempts leads to one answer, and that ain't a yes. I thought she was too indecisive when it came to this. But ohhhhhhhhh noooooooo.......I was just being blinded to what she really does. I thought those eyes that portrayed innocence, her 'farm girl' demeanor meant that she don't know how it is, but was I proved wrong.

And I honestly liked how it is. I won't have to commit if she didn't want to. And now I know why.

One thing with me is that I always, ALWAYS check on consistency. If I see one inconsistency, I can let it slide. But more than once is enough to kick you out. And she was going on a streak of inconsistencies recently. I deduce it to the factor that she has been telling a lot of guys and gals that she has a 'man' in her life, of which I thought it was just to stop other guys from flirting with her. (I barely flirt with her btw, we jus talk and magic happens apparently) But then she posted(for the first time ever as she ain't a social media user like that) herself and a guy, his face hidden with an emoji. That raised questions, which I asked her but she deflected.

Reader, if you have this type of a question on your head 'Why are you on her case? You ain't even dating.She could date whoever she wants.' Let me be done.

Then I decide to put pressure, like I have many times before. And what does she do? She hits me with the classic line, "Let's be besties."  When I tell you that I wanted to just smash someone's head in! Ooooofffff! I was pissed then(I did punch a tree a couple of times)but I calmed down and let it go. After all, we was never official. Or public, because she wasn't into that.

Then two days later, she calls me. Random calls is something I don't expect, least of all her. The last time she did it was six months ago. But the call. Sure we talked about school stuff and all that. Then I pressed her on her 'man'.

I know most of y'all are saying. 'You're controlling. Stop being toxic'. Kindly stfu and let me finish.

She deflects, as per usual when I apply pressure on something serious. But I don't let up this time. Again, and again, until she said it, in a voice so low no one could hear but I did.

" It is you. "

Believe me when I say I wanted to chuck my phone to the wall across from me. I was in so much shock , but I asked if this is true. She said yes. But I know when to be cautious. I cannot trust her word. Not after hitting me with the line TWO DAYS EARLIER!

So you telling me, after ALMOST TWO YEARS of history and then hitting me with the most atrocious line imaginable, then two days later, to have the AUDACITY, the GALL, dare I say the NERVE to say THAT?!

Girl, one thing I sure ain't am is stupid. And one thing I don't like is wasting my time, energy and effort to something fruitless.

So what, you think you can lead me on? As you've done for two years?! Yeah, fuck you and HELL FUCKING NO!

And it seems like I ain't the only victim.

As I'm speaking I've just read her texts. All of them. At least the ones that looked suspicious. The ones she don't let any random person see. Kindly enough, I wasn't there. But someone was. His name was saved 'Love'. But that alone wasn't surprising.

Hold on let me give you a sample of the good she was selling.

"Good boy....."
"Sure thing, my love....."
"Let's meet next week"
"Like, do you miss my company. I come over?"

I could go on and on and on......

ENOUGH

I've had enough .Of being played like a fucking fiddle. Seems that's the norm nowadays. Just getting my emotions hurt for someone's entertainment. Fool me once. That's a fair game. Fooling me twice, that is alright. But I'll be damned to even let myself be fooled again.

I've had enough. I'm done. Let her drown in the Atlantic ocean for all I fucking care. I'm done with her, and to anyone else who thinks I'm just a tool.