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my girl⚠️💕(requested)

a/n: trigger warning - eating disorder so please don't read if that makes you uncomfortable! <3
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a few weeks ago you'd been seeing so many photos of yourself and so many negative comments, you ignored them at first but then you started to believe them.

you couldn't help but hate the way you looked and it all caused you to be down in general. taylor never knew about this, you couldn't tell her because you were so embarrassed.

how could you tell taylor swift you didn't feel like you were enough for her. you hid it all away for her and told countless lies, at this point you lost track of what you'd last told her.

taylor was now getting suspicious because you were using the same excuses every time it came to dinner time or lunch time. you'd just tell her you ate with your friend. taylor called your friend, worried that you weren't telling the truth.

with all the excuses and how you'd been losing weight rapidly she knew something was wrong, but wanted to make sure before confronting you about it.

when she called your friend and asked where you've been having dinner together your friend told her that you haven't been out for food in weeks.

taylor's heart sunk in her chest as the reality was really starting to sink in, she didn't want to believe it at first and was persistent that your friend was getting the details wrong.

it wasn't a complete lie. you did go out with your friend almost everyday, but never ate together you always told your friend you were eating with taylor. and you told taylor you were eating with your friend.

both of them started to worry as a moment of silence hung while they were speaking on the phone.

"don't worry i'm gonna sort this out, i'll get y/n the help she needs" taylor spoke shakily before hanging up quickly.

her head dropped into her hands as she realised that you'd managed all of this and she didn't know. all she's ever wanted to do is protect you from the media who always find a way to tear people down.

your key turned in the door and taylor quickly wiped her teary eyes and took a deep breath before walking towards you.

as soon as you walked in you could smell the food taylor prepared beforehand and it made you realise how hungry you really were. but you couldn't eat it, at least in your eyes, it would just make everyone hate you even more.

"oh hey tay, i already ate sorry. the food smells great though!" you said with a fake smile plastered on your face.

you walked over her and pulled her into a hug. "y/n we need to talk baby" she spoke softly, pressing a kiss to your head.

"yeah? what d'you wanna talk about" you said confused and furrowed your eyebrows. she led you over to the couch and you took a seat next to her.

"y/n i want you to know that i love you no matter what okay? so don't freak out when i say this baby" she said quietly while fiddling with the tassel on her shorts.

"oh god, what happened" you said worriedly and you heart dropped. your mind wandered, you thought about what if taylor found out about everything. but you were so sure that she never found out, you're eyes were a little watery just thinking about it.

"i know.. you haven't been eating my love" she said slowly and took your hands into hers.

you began to bounce your leg up and down and a few tears fell from your eyes. taylor softly rubbed your hands comfortingly "no, no baby it's okay. don't cry i'm here, it's all okay" she said as she pulled your head into her chest.

she ran her fingers through your hair as your sobbed into her shirt, "y/n, angel, it's okay. you can talk to me baby" she said softly in your ear. you didn't reply, just held her even tighter, afraid to let go.

she laid back against the couch with you still in her arms "shh shh, it's okay my love" she whispered comfortingly. you sniffled a few times before looking up at her with your red eyes "im sorry tay, i tried to stop i really did. but they just became too much" you said with a pout.

"awh angel you have nothing to be sorry for, i love you so much okay?" she cooed.

you pressed a kiss to her lips and she wiped your teary eyes when you pulled away from her. "i'm going to help you okay my love, we're gonna take this slow. i'll help you every step of the way." she promised

"okay, thanks tay" you said shyly. "that pasta smells great and. i have to admit im really hungry" you added sadly.

"ill get you some my love. you don't have to eat it all, just promise me to eat something" she said before going into the kitchen and returning with a plate of pasta for each of you.

she rubbed your back comfortingly as you stared at the food "please angel, give this a try you'll feel so much better i promise" she said softly.

you ate half of the plate and taylor had also began to eat hers "i don't think i can do anymore tay im sorry" you said as you placed your fork down.

"that's alright my love, this takes time" she reassured you. she took both of your plates and put them in the kitchen. she was about to walk back into the living room but when she turned around she was met with your eyes. "thank you tay, for helping me through this and not judging me" you said as you took her hands in yours.

she squeezed your hands softly "of course angel, you're my girl id do anything for you. want to watch a movie and cuddle in bed?" she said.

"that sounds wonderful tay" you said as you both began to walk up the stairs and into your shared bedroom. she laid down on the bed and pulled you into her arms.

you cuddled up close to her and by the time she put a movie on you'd already fallen asleep. she noticed this and kissed your head sweetly "sweet dreams angel, i love you" she whispered.

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