taylor swift imagines gxg

im worried about you⚠️

⚠️trigger warning again: this chapter contains stuff about eating disorders. please don't read this if that makes you uncomfortable⚠️
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as you were a psychologist, you noticed things others didn't and picked up on them much faster. when taylor started to push everyone away from her and wasn't eating as much it quickly concerned you. you was afraid she was slipping back into her old habits.

you were both sitting to the table with your lunch in front of you. you could tell she didn't want to eat it as she stared at it with disgust and ate it very slowly.

she only managed to eat half of it and she went to stand up to go empty her plate and put it in with the dirty dishes. but you grabbed her wrist as she stood up from her seat, pulling her to sit back down next to you.

"are you not gonna eat the rest of your food baby?" you asked her giving her a concerned look.

she simply shook her head and dragged her feet up the stairs and into the bedroom. she was exhausted even though you two hadn't left the house or done much today. it was because she wasn't eating properly and you knew it.

your eyes began to sting with tears as you sat in silence and thought about taylor. you knew she needed help but you just needed her to open up to you.

when taylor went upstairs she immediately went and sat infront of the toilet and threw up everything she'd eaten. her cheeks were stained with tears as she stared blankly at the mirror.

the reflection stared back at her, she didn't look at herself the way she used to. she no longer felt like her body belonged to her because of how much she hated every piece of it. she pulled her hair in frustration because she didn't look the way she wanted to.

she wanted to be skinnier but not eating was killing her, she was exhausted all day and felt extremely weak. she saw her phone light up as a notification popped up.

it was the articles. what that had started this in the first place, she sighed before opening it. the photos people had taken were plastered all over the article. she zoomed into the photos looking at her body in disgust.

by now, you had finished your food and decided to go upstairs to taylor to see if you could help her in any way.

you stood in the doorway as you watched her look at photos of herself with tears streaming down her face.

she was too caught in her thoughts and hadn't realised you were standing there. you walked over to her and gently took her phone out of her hands and placed it on the counter. you pulled her into your arms "y/n i can't do this anymore" she shakily sobbed into your chest. "shh, baby it's okay, everything's gonna be okay" you reassured her and comforted her.

she sobbed loudly and you could feel her body shake with each one. it broke your heart into a million pieces seeing her this upset. your own eyes began to water but you blinked the tears away because you knew taylor needed you more than ever right now.

"i'm so sorry y/n" she cried out while falling to the floor and leaning her head on the wall behind her. "no no no, this is not your fault okay? you have nothing to be sorry for" you assured her as you stroked her cheek, catching the stream of tears falling down her face.

you held her tight and close as she calmed herself down. she pulled away from you and looked at you with her eyes that usually sparkle and pouted sadly. you intertwined your hand with hers and rested your other on her shoulder.

"tay i'm going to help you okay? we're gonna get through this together, i promise. you've gotten through this before and i have no doubt you can do it again, i believe in you" you said and she cracked a sad smile at you.

she found comfort in your words and grew tired and covered her mouth with her hand as she yawned. you kissed her on her forehead before wrapping your arms around her waist and holding her so she was wrapped around you like a koala.

"let's get you to bed beautiful" you said quietly in her ear as you walked over to the bed and carefully put her down, tucking her in before climbing in next to her.

she immediately crawled onto your lap and you wrapped your arms around her, holding her tightly never wanting to let go. you kissed the crown of her head "go to sleep baby i'll be right here the whole time, we can talk when you wake up"

you turned the tv on and put something random on for you to watch while taylor slept, the volume was just loud enough for you to hear it because you didn't want to wake taylor. she slowly drifted off to sleep safe in your arms.

a few hours passed and taylor woke up and rubbed her sleepy eyes. "hello sweet girl" you said adoringly, you showered her face with kisses as she slowly sat up.

"you ready to talk about it?" you asked her with patience, making sure you didn't overwhelm her. she anxiously nodded her head and took a deep breath. "hey, you don't need to worry about anything. i'm not going to judge you i'm here to help you baby" you said taking her hands into yours.

"i'm sorry y/n, i never meant for it to get this bad. it started with me just skipping a few meals here and there and then i just couldn't stop. it got worse and i ate as little as i possibly could, whatever i did eat i just threw it up in secret" she took a deep breath and you sadly smiled at her and rubbed small circles around her knuckles before she continued "it was the articles again    y/n, i've always stopped myself from looking at too many of them. but once i started i just couldn't stop scrolling, they were horrible. they said how i was gaining too much weight and how you should find someone better" she sniffled as a tear fell from her eye. "i'm sorry if i'm not good enough for you." she said looking down at her hands, ashamed.

"hey, don't be like that taylor. you are more than enough for me and i will forever be grateful i get to have a wonderful girl like you in my life. we all have our struggles and we're here to help each other okay?" you caressed her cheek as she let a slight smile tug at her lips.

"thank you y/n, i really want to stop i do but i just don't know how to" she said as she slightly tilted her head and pouted.

"that's what i'm for tay. i'm going to help you through this, we're going to do it together i promise. we can take it slow i won't force you to do anything if you aren't ready for yet"

"what did i do to ever deserve you y/n" she said in awe of how much you cared for her. 

you smiled from ear to ear "you hungry? want me to make you something?" you asked her calmly.

"yes please, i have to admit i'm really hungry.

you were patient with taylor, not pushing her too far. you were going to help her through this even if it took your whole life. you love taylor with your whole heart and it hurts to see her hurting.

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a/n: feel free to request something :)

im always here if anyone needs someone to vent to, dms are open <3

this one was a bit longer than usual and i don't think i'm going to write such long chapters because i had to keep taking breaks

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