taylor swift imagines gxg

id say i love you even at your darkest (requested) 💕⚠️

trigger warning: self harm

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taylor slowly stirred awake from her nap. her hours had been stressful at work recently, so she's been needing naps to make sure she's not too exhausted. she slowly sat up, stretching her arms above her head and yawning.

benji climbed on top of her and demanded some strokes, taylor obviously gave them to him. her smile slowly turned into a frown when she couldn't see you around and the house was completely silent.

"where's your other mom, benj?" she whispered and slowly got up from the couch. she doesn't remember much of the day, all she remembers is going to work, coming home, being tired, you telling her to go to sleep, and now waking up.

she could've sworn you were cuddling with her when she fell asleep, but you must've gone upstairs. she sleepily stumbled towards the stairs, muttering a few curse words under her breath when she almost tripped and fell over meredith.

she's noticed you've been acting different recently, you're not yourself. you're usually a quite happy and bubbly person but the past few weeks, that's completely changed. you've been eating less and leaving the house less, which obviously worries taylor, she's noticed everything but didn't want to upset you. so she left you and hoped it was just hormones, but recently it's been worse and she tried to talk to you about it but you just pushed her away.

thoughts were flying through taylor's mind about what you could be doing. she hoped you were just sleeping but she couldn't help but imagine the worst. given you've been together for 4 years, she's been through your darkest times with you before. she's walked in on you having mental breakdowns or worse before. she only hoped it wasn't as bad as last time.

she took a deep breath as she reached the top of the stairs, and slowly padded down the hallway. her heart dropped as she heard the sound of faint sobbing coming from your shared bedroom.       "y/n?" she called out your name when she was infront of the bedroom door.

she felt a lump in her throat when you didn't reply "y/n, baby i'm coming in" she announced and placed her hand on the door handle. she tried to open it but failed, realising it was locked.

"honey what's wrong? unlock the door sweetheart, you're scaring me" she spoke a little louder, in hopes of you hearing her. she heard some noise come from the bedroom and then your footsteps walking towards the door.

she heard the key turn in the door and then she was met with the sight of you with tears all over your face, messed up hair, smeared makeup, and looking completely exhausted. you were ugly crying and it was bad.

taylor's heart shattered from seeing you in this state, "oh my god, what's wrong?" she asked and immediately pulled you into her arms, holding your head into her chest. you gripped onto her shirt and sobbed into her chest, she walked into the bedroom with you and sat down on the bed.

"baby, what happened? what's the matter?" she questioned and wiped some of your tears, it didn't do much as more just came spilling from your eyes and down your face.

you directed your eyes away from taylor's and stared at the ground, you felt her soft lips gently press down on your cheek. "talk to me y/n, you know you can" she whispered softly as you looked around the room, thinking of what to say.

"i-i..." you sighed, trying to get the words out but your sobs took over. taylor rested a hand on the small of your back and looked down at you with her soft, caring, loving eyes. the eyes that held nothing but kindness and compassion towards you. the eyes that reminded you that you could tell her anything, her eyes are powerful and hold so many emotions.