Marriage isn't always perfect

lesson 3

" let's get started octavia may i ask where is your wedding ring?"

" I took it off I " I told her simply no point in doing the most

" why did you take it off?"

" I just did I don't want to walk around with a wedding ring that means nothing honestly"

Jasmine looked at me in thought before writing stuff down in her book she focused her attention to Andreas now.

" Andreas I wanna know what you felt losing a child?"

I didn't expect her to ask him that and I kinda wanted to know as well.

" i don't know" he answered i rolled my eyes and leaned against the couch.

" why say i don't know?"

" honestly nobody cared for me at that time in our life no one checked in on me I only got calls about octavia all day  Everyday  Every month it's like people think I was strong yet I was breaking that was my child as much as hers I helped in the making of our child"

" Octavia have you ever considered his feelings?" Jasmine asked me

I looked her dead in the face and I couldn't lie i would't that's why we're here now for a whole other shit as well.

" no at that time I will be honest no I didn't really take his feelings into consideration" I told her

I could see the look of hurt flash on Andreas face out the side of my eye I didn't wanna look cause deep down that look hurt me.

" why not Octavia?"

" I don't know " I lied

" we're honest in this space Octavia so please be honest" of course she knew

" i blamed him for the lost of our child i felt like he stressed me out to no end he wasn't there as the father so yes when I lost the child i wasn't thinking about him because half the time i was blaming him"

" I LOST A CHILD TO NOT JUST HER SHE DOESN'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ME YOU WOULD THINK YOU WOULD CARE ABOUT ME TOO!" Andreas yelled out hurt was coming out that's all I heard

But all that was going on my mind was to

DEFEND

DEFEND

AND

DEFEND

So that's what I did

" YOU DONT THINK I KNOW THAT BABY BOY WAS BOTH OF OURS! But you're right about one thing I stopped giving a fuck about you" I told him

" okay one tip yelling isn't how you get your point across it doesn't help the situation whatsoever so when we talk to each other no yelling" Jasmine told us

I nodded my head even if I thought she was wrong but we need help.

" now Andreas get your point across with out yelling "

" finding out she was pregnant again was a blessing so being at the hospital and when o-our son was finally pushed out he wasn't crying m-my heart stopped they tried everything and still nothing we lost our son I tried to be there for her I did but I was hurting just as much it hurt even more when we couldn't be parents and had to send our child with her grandparents"