Marriage isn't always perfect

Lesson 19

" are you ready?"

" do i have a choice?" I asked seriously

" yes you do but i would like you to stay can i ask my questions?"

" yes"

" how would you describe your home that you live in right now?"

" it's homie i actually like it i feel safe there and my child is safe it feels like a family lives there" I told her

" mhmm and how did your child hood home feel?"

Oh she's good I see what Andreas was talking about.

" it was okay"

" Octavia"

" it was sad depressing almost I hated living there it was no warmth just cold that's why i don't want my home to ever be like"

" tell me more about that your child hood home"

" my dad and mom argued so much manly because he cheated on her and they just wasn't happy together but she stuck with him because they build such an image together they don't want to ruin it"

" isn't that what you are going through right now?"

" yes but Andrea's didn't cheat on me we have problems yes I asscued him of A lot and I feel bad because I feel i stepped out on him when I went out on the date and he didn't even cheat on me"

" do you ever see your parents relationship and think you're going through what they are?" Jasmine asked

" sometimes but I never wanna be like that i see how me and Andreas used to argue so much and Serenity was there and she woke up one time that day I saw myself and I hated it so so much I want Serenity to see her parents love each other just like we used too"

" and what happens if she doesn't will you be like your parents or will you do what's needed even if the outcome is not what you expected when you decided to bring life into this world with Andreas"

" i would do what we said by the end of wedding if we aren't better and treating each other with love then it's no need to force it"

" good Octavia really I can see you are doing your very best to not be like your parents I wanna ask you something do you think your mother is still in love with your dad?

Shit

" um to be honest no i think she still loves my dad because they were together since teens but in love no" I told her sitting up

" and your dad do you think the same?"

" I think my dad is in love with the fact he knows she will stay to protect her image and that she forgives him but he is not in love with her he's not connected with her mind body and soul he's connected with the one he knows she wouldn't leave him no matter how dirty he does her he has that power over her that he is in love with not her"

" powerful words tell me your relationship with them it will help me very much"

" I love my mom i really do but she doesn't know how to leave when it gets so worse my mom lost herself with him so i distance myself from her I want my mom back the mom that did it for herself and not a man that cheated on her over and over"