Soul Bond

Prologue: From The End

Haver you ever lost someone you love? Edward had told me many time how it felt, his pain and sorrow, but I noticed back then I truly didn't understand it, the feelings. Now I know it first hand. It's like having a rain cloud looming, pouring rain on you everyday. That's how depressing it was.

But I guess I should have thought of that before right? Before I had placed my lips on Israel? Before I had even walked into the room. But it doesn't matter now, what happened, happened. I deserve no worse than the feeling of loneliness, I had never truly been alone. Never in life had I felt that. Not when I was abandoned by my first adoptive family, not when I had ran away from the school and had to spilt. Not even when I was dying for my very first time.

Without Justin, I'm missing a part of me that I had never knew existed. He's my other half, he's half my heart and our bond is incomplete without him. But I will bring him back. Even if I have to give up my life for him, I will do it without a hesitation. He deserves that and a lot more. I give my life up for him, I had never been afraid of death. And I will never be, because if there's something I've learned from spirit, is that your tied to the world of dead and if you don't control yourself you'll join them.

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I toss and turn for the millionth time this night. I can't find sleep. Not with the images of last month's event flashing ever so freshly in my mind. The look in Justin's hungry eyes that wanted to see my body limb and bloodless. I sit up, finally giving up on sleeping. I don't even want to close my eyes. I look to my empty bedside, where Justin would have laid shirtless beside me.

I pull the blanket tightly around my legs. I hug it tight. It's all my fault, it's all my fault. I repeat over and over as tears slip down my cheeks. This was every night if I'm alone. I break down and let it all out, this is better than doing it in public. In the day, for everyone's sake I act strong. I act as if I wasn't hurt or in pain when everything in this damn place(no offense but it does) reminds me of Justin and it all reminds me of the reasons why he's gone.

But tomorrow I would be leaving for St. Vladimir Academy with Dimitri Belikov and Anthony. There I would be put into more training and help with my powers, because so far spirit hasn't been so helpful, if anything it fogs my mind and makes everything unclear. Justin used to clear my mind and help heal it, but without him I'm on my own.

On my own. I focus my energy into his thoughts and feelings. Carlisle has giving my medication so I would lay off the magic because spirit started to depress me. But I objected to it and don't take it, since spirit isn't blocked I'm still connected to Justin. I feel his thoughts and feelings and know where he is. But I've blocked him from me, he can't read or feel me or know my location. I stare at the wall and focus hard and finally my vision blurs, I'm in Justin's mind.

*Justin's mind*

He's pacing a dark room, looking awkwardly around the area of it towards the window. He rather be somewhere else than here. "Again try" Kalona said patiently, Justin glares,"Look how many times do I have to tell you?! She's blocked me! I don't know where she is! And since my mind is a mess I don't remember where either" he growled annoyed by these power sessions Kalona has created.

"You can break through you just need to find her weakness","ahhh!!! How can you be so damn patient?!!!!" he explodes sitting on the couch. Kalona snaps,"the only reason you live at the moment is to help me find her, now you do this or else you won't receive her powers. "I don't know if it's worth it anymore" he whispered.

*back*

There's a knock at the door that snaps me back to my messed up mind. "Oh come in"I say blinking a few times. "I knew you were awake, lets go to sleep right now Bloom" said Anthony with a sleepy smile as he walks in. "But-","now come on you need rest to clear your mind ok?","fine" I murmur as he goes onto the spot where Justin once slept. I had gotten used to having Anthony sleep beside me on my sleepless nights.

Cuddling closer to him, I fall asleep into dreamless sleep, something I appreciate very much now days, I rather not dream.