Jake and I. (On Hold)

Chapter 4: The next morning.

I was awakened early by Jake's snoring. I was wide awake right away; I had yet to be angry with Jake. I had to think of something to get back at him as soon as possible. I snuck into the kitchen as a little plan was bubbling up in my head. I filled a glass of ice cold water from the refrigerator and went to Jake's room. I carefully opened the door and looked at the sleeping snoring Jake. I threw the glass of ice cold water over Jake, and with a scream he woke up and he looked around frantically. I burst out laughing, "Your face, really golden! This was for last night and for waking me up with your snoring,' I kept laughing and Jake looked at me sullenly as he stood up. 'Goddamn Emily! I'm completely soaked!" he yelled angrily, "That kind of joke is not funny!" he yelled. Now I was getting angry too: 'First of all I announced it, Secondly you think it's funny to leave me in the lurch for so long, I was sick to death of worrying and you just come walking back in in the middle of the night! Do you really think that's funny!" brightly I looked at him, and even though Jake is taller, I have no problem staring at people with my deadly eyes.'

Jake looked away. "Too scared to face it all I guess?" I asked directly. Jake's breath halted, and I knew I had hit his nerve, but Jake was not like others he had an answer already prepared and he just about spit the answer out: "At least I only look away, you tried to end your life, so let's think about who doesn't want to face anything? Now he looked back with a deadly stare. I had no words back. 'You're right,' I said alone, I saw Jake swallow and I grabbed my backpack and started packing the most important things. I walked across the room, to the living room, to the storage room and Jake walked behind me, "What are you doing?" he asked. 'What are you up to? Where are you going?" he asks. When I have everything packed, 'Back, thank you for letting me stay here, really. But I now feel it's time to move on. I have enjoyed the time together, but now it is good. I wish you lots of fun and success later. I smiled at him and stood on my toes to give him a kiss on his cheek. 'Why are you going now all of a sudden? I don't get it. It was just a discussion we were having, wasn't it?" he asked. I shook my head, 'It's not just a discussion, it's the truth. I'm going back and I'm going to face everything,' I said, nodding at him and closing the door behind me.

This was my decision, and I was determined to do what I could. I walked back to the orphanage, I was still going to work, I was going to see what I can do to survive later, without Jake, without the orphanage, without a lot of money, without a job, later when I'm 18 I have to be able to take care of myself, but I have to start learning that now. When I came back, no one looked surprised. No one came to ask if I was doing well or how I had survived. Somehow that really hurt, that's not the way it's supposed to be, is it?