Babies

You're little too?

**trigger warning: s3lf h4rm sc4rs mentions**

Chan did feel bad leaving BamBam alone at his studio, but decided he needed some time for himself. As soon as he knocked at the dorm's door, he was pulled inside by someone, who he soon recognised as Hyunjin.

"Where were you? Dinner is almost ready" scolded the dancer.

"I was at the studio" grumbled the leader, not wanting to lie to his friend but also not in the mood for a scolding. The younger got the hint and just sighed, leading him towards the dining table where the others were already serving themselves some food.

The dinner was silent, Chan was busy observing the other members of the group, noticing how Seungmin was barely eating. Is he sick? thought the oldest, instantly regretting spending time with BamBam earlier.

"Are you ok Minnie? You look a bit sick" pointed out the leader.

"Can I tell you a secret? It's really important" pleaded Seungmin, making the leader worry even more even if he didn't show it.

"Yeah, sure, what is it?" asked Felix.

And then, Chan's world crashed down on him.

"Have you ever heard of age regression and pet regression?" asked the older vocalist.

Chan started to sweat. Did Seungmin find out about his secret? But no one except BamBam was supposed to know-

The leader's thoughts were stopped by realization. Seungmin wasn't talking about him. He was talking about himself.

Hearing a cry, Chan got brought back to reality. Quickly composing himself he picked up the second youngest and placed him on the floor to prevent accidental falls.

Seungmin had obviously slipped so Chan tried to comfort him, when suddenly the little brought his finger in his mouth, as if it was a pacifier.

"What are you doing Minnie?" asked the leader, not sure if what the younger was doing was a stress reliever or a way to show he was distressed.

"Bitie" giggled the vocalist. Chan smiled understandingly and decided to not question it, just letting the younger do whatever he wanted.

Soon though, the leader was again silent, lost in his thoughts for the hundredth time that day. This time, what brought him back to reality was Felix's voice.

"Hyung, Hyunjin wants to explain us what's going on with Seungmin. I know something about it, but I think itks a new topic for you so it might be useful to hear him out" explained the dancer.

Chan used all of his self-control to not let out a bitter chuckle and reveal his secret there and then. Instead, he sighed before getting up and following his fellow Australian friend to the living room, where the others were waiting for them.

Chan zoned out again while the members discussed about Seungmin. When he thought the conversation was finished, he stood up and left to go towards his room. The others tried to call him back but he didn't turn back. He wasn't ignoring them, he wouldn't even dream of doing it, he was just so deep in thought that he couldn't hear the voices that were calling his name. Eventually the others stopped calling Chan's name and just decided to go to bed.

Once he reached his room, Chan started to cry his eyes out. Why, out of all moments, Seungmin had to out himself as a little just when he was so weak and vulnerable? Seeing that the scars on his arms were still fresh and new, the boy decided to not go harder on them, however the thought came to his mind, hitting him harder than ever.

Dialling BamBam's number he called his caregiver, eager for some support and comfort. Luckily for him the older boy replied immediately.

"Hey Chan, what's up?" greeted the Thai boy.

"Da- daddy" stuttered the younger, sobbing and crying.

"Are you at the dorm now?" asked BamBam, worried. Chan never called him daddy. For him it was always Bam or BamBam when he was big and Bammie or Bambi when he was small.

Not receiving an answer, the oldest just decided to go there and search for his baby. Slipping inside Stray Kids' dorm, the Thai boy noticing how everything was quiet except for some faint sobs. Following them, the boy found his little curled up in a ball, sobs wrecking his body that looked so small and fragile.

"Can you calm down for daddy, small one?" whispered BamBam sitting on the bed and placing the little on his laps. Clutching on his caregiver's shirt, the boy tried his best to calm down, succeeding after a few minutes.

"That's my good boy" praised BamBam with a smile, making Chan blush.

"What happened that got you so worked up baby boy?" asked the caregiver.

"Minnie smaww wike Channie" explained the leader, tears coming right back at the thought.

"Noo, small one, don't cry. Daddy hates seeing his baby cry" whispered BamBam kissing the boy's forehead.

"Has take cawe o' Minnie now" said Chan with a sad tone.

"Yes, you can take care of Seungmin, but first you need to take care of yourself baby" reminded BamBam.

"Nuh, Channie can nuh be smaww nuh mowe" disagreed the little.

"We'll have this talk another time, now it's time to sleep. It's waaaay past your bedtime and I bet you feel exhausted after everything that happened" smiled the caregiver, exaggerating some words.

"Do you want some warm milk baby?" suggested the oldest.

"Miwk please?"

"Yes baby, some milk because you were such a big and brave boy today and daddy is so proud of you for being so strong" praising the little, BamBam carried him to the kitchen and prepared some warm milk for the boy.

"Do you want honey or vanilla with your milk baby?" asked BamBam once the milk was warm.

"Honey pwease" requested the boy shyly.

Once the milk was ready for the little to drink, BamBam held his bottle, caressing the little's cheeks ever so gently.

"Nuh wan wose daddy" whispered Chan before falling asleep.

"Daddy isn't going anywhere little one. He will be right next to you all the time" promised BamBam, kissing the little's cheeks and tucking him under the covers of the bed, before plopping a paci in his mouth and leaving the dorm quietly.

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