TW!!! Selfharm, ED, OCD, doing bad mentally etc.
Charlie's Pov:
Everything is a mess at the moment. I'm a mess. Everything i getting out of control, and i dont know how to tell Nick.
I have already been enough of a burden on him, and i dont wanna be that again.
Me and Nick are currently cooking dinner, but i know i won't be able to get anything Down. My OCD is so bad right now, and I'm honestly suprised Nick havent noticed. All the voices in my head are screaming right now, and they defintatly triggered my ED.
As we're finishing up i excuse myself and go to the bathroom. I feel tears starting to form in my eyes. I close the door behind me, and slide Down the Wall. My mind immediately goes to the thought of self harm. I know I shouldn't, but everything is just too much, and I need some kind of control. Even if it's by hurting myself.
My hand reach for the drawer and I pull out the blade.
No Charlie. Stop.
No i have to. I have to do it.
I slid the blade against my wrist. I look at the cut slowly turning red. I Then slid it Down my wrist once again.
Why am i like this? Why am i such a drama Queen? Whats wrong with me? Why can't i just pull myself together. If not for me, Then for Nick.
As I'm lost in my thought i hear a knock on the bathroom door.
"You good in there, love?" Nick asks
"Yep, I'll be out in a minute" i say trying to Sound as normal as possible.
Nick's Pov:
I didn't believe Charlie one bit, but i didn't wanna push him.
"Okay" i answered, and walked back into the kitchen. As i'm laying the table, Charlie walks into the kitchen. We sit Down and both take some food onto our plates. I start eating, but after a minute Charlie still hasnt touched his food. I'm really starting to worry about him.
Charlie's Pov:
I feel nauseous just looking at the food. I can't do it. Not today
"Are you not hungry?" Nick asks me
"Not really. Had a Big lunch at work today"
"Char..."
Shit.
Nick gets up from his chair and walks around the table. He lifts me up, and carry me to the Living room. We sit Down on the sofa, and now i know i need to talk about what i did in the bathroom earlier. He deserves to know the truth. Even though it'll probably make him hate me.
"I'm a mess"
Nick looks at me. I Can tell he's trying to figure out what to say, but before he has a change to figure that out i speak again
"I started doing bad again maybe a month ago. I dont wanna be a burden. So i didn't tell you. I- i uhm.. i Cut myself" my voice breaks
"Char.. you're never a burden. I wanna laugh with you on good days, and hold you on bad ones."
I can't believe this man is my boyfriend.
"Charlie i love you. I Always Will. And I'm gonna spend the rest of my life proving that to you."
"I love you" i whisper and lean in for a hug. This was all i needed.
A/U
Sorry Its a bit short. I Got the idea from my friend Maja who also writes on here!! Follow her!! M0lly1i0
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Nick and Charlie 🫶 (oneshots)
FanfictionThis story Will be oneshots (maybe a few stories with more than one part) Its my first time writing a story like this so I'll probably have to learn along the Way!
