Nick and Charlie 🫶 (oneshots)

ED

TW!!!! There Will be a lot of talk about ED in this chapter so if that triggers you skip to the next chapter! Also a mentions of SH 🫶

Charlie's persepctive:
Lately my eating disorder have gotten a lot worse. I've hardly eaten anything this week. I'm so dissapointed in myself, cause i was doing so much better, but the voices have just been so loud lately.

I haven't talked to Nick about it. I dont wanna burden him with more of my problems. I've done that enough.

I eat dinner with him, but i Always go for a walk with daisy (our dog) after and find somewhere to throw it up again. All the voices in my head are telling me that if i keep the food Down Nick Will end up gettting hurt. And i know Its not real, but they are so loud and scary that i can't help but give in.

Nick's been away for 2 days for a work trip, and i have only had a small sandwich since he left. My stomach is making all kind of sounds, but i just can't get anything Down.

Nick's perspective:
I'm on my Way Home from a work trip to Dublin. And to be honest i am really worried about Charlie. He has been so bad at responding to my texts (he normally texts me all the time), but he hasnt been doing that.

I know something is up. But I'm not sure what. He's been eating fine, No selfharm, and i havent noticed him doing any of his OCD things like Washing his hands 3 times, so i really dont know Whats wrong, but i know that he is not okay.

I pull into the driveway and get out of the car. I walk up to the House and open the door. Of course daisy Greets me at the door. She jumps up on me and licks my face. God I've missed her too.

"Char?" I yell

But he doesnt answer

I walk into the bedroom and see him curled up in bed. I walk over to the bed and sit Down next to him. His eyes are closed and theres stained tears on his cheeks.

I Lay down next to him and pull him in close to me. God what am i gonna do?

While I'm thinking of ways to talk to him about Whats bothering him, i feel myself dose off...

Charlie's persepctive:
I open my eyes and see Nick sleeping in the bed. He is Holding me so tight. I've missed him.

I really need to talk to him dont i?

God i really dont want to. But i know Its the right thing.

"Nick"

"Mhm"

"Hi" my voice cracks

"Oh char, hey Whats wrong" he says as he sits up and pull me into his lap.

"M- my ED has got- gotten worse..." i sob

He looks at me in shock. God he probably hates me now.

"Please dont hate me" i say in a tiny voice

"Wait- i would never hate you char. I just- i wish i had noticed. I Always notice when something is wrong. I'm so Sorry. I should have paid more attention"

"No Nick, I've honestly hidden it really well this time. I've Always went on walks with daisy after dinner so i could throw it up again"

"Oh char, i love you, Thank you for telling me" he kisses my forehead and pulls me in tighter, if thats even possible.

"Do you know Why Its gotten worse?" He asks

"No. Theres nothing bad in my life. My mom and i have been working on our relationship, and Its going really well. And i have you. And a job. And all our friends. So i dont know why the voices have gotten so loud again"

I see a tear starting to fill his eye.

"Wha- what does the voices say..?" He asks scared of the answer.

"That doesnt matter" i mumble

"Charlie, Its okay if you dont wanna tell me, but i really Think it would help"

I sigh. "Fine"

"So uhm.. basically... they tell me something bad Will happen to you... something really bad"

"Char, Come here" he holds his arms open, and i curl into his chest. God i never wanna loose Nick.

"I Think you should make an appointment woth geoff this week' Nick says

"Yeah, i Will"

"I love you Charlie"

"I love you" i answer and Then i feel myself slowly falling asleep.

*the next morning*

Nick's perspective:

I wake up to the light sounds of charlie's snoring. Normally i hate it when people snore, but with Charlie Its difffernt. Like of course they arent loud so that also helps. But for me his snores is a sign of him being at peace.

I Always just Lay and listen to Them until he wakes up. They are so calming.

Charlie starts to move around a bit which indicates he is walking up.

"Morning love"

"Mhm.. morning" he answers

"I'm gonna make some breakfast, Can you try to eat a little?"

"Yeah"

"What do you want?"

"Just some cereal"

"Okay, I'll go get it so we can eat here. You find a movie"

"Mhm"

I walk downstairs to the kitchen and find some food. Honestly i wanted pancakes, but i know me eating something Else would stress him out, so i'm just gonna eat cereal aswell.

I gather all of the stuff and walk back upstairs.

"Move over a bit"

He moves little to the side and i sit Down next to him. He lays his head on my shoulder.

"The voices?"

"Yeah"

"Here, We'll do it together okay?"

He nods.

"1.. 2... 3..." we both take a mouthful.

"You okay?"

"Yeah, Thank you"

"Of course Charlie. I love you"

"I love you too"

After we finished we just stayed in bed. Its was saturday so it didn't really matter.

AU:
Soeey Its a bit rushed!!! Hope there arent too many mistakes!!!

- H