Nick and Charlie 🫶 (oneshots)

In the middle of the night

TW!!! Talking about sexual assult, panic attacks

Nick's perspective:

I wake up from the Sound of something i can't quite make out what is. I open my eyes and i see that Its 2am. I look over at Charlie and my heart sinks. He is sweating and breathing really quickly. He looks so stressed out. He's having another nightmare, he's been having a lot of Them lately.

"Char, hey hey Its okay shh... Its just a nightmare. Please wake up" i say while running my hand through his hair. He stirs slighty at my touch but doesnt wake up.
"Charlie. Hey Its okay wake up" after what feel like years but is probably only a minute he opens his eyes still breathing quickly and sweating crazy.

Tears starts streaming Down his face and he starts sobbing uncontrollably.
"Char Its okay, it was just a nightmare. Come here" i open my arms and snuggles into me.

"I'm scared Nick" he says so quietly. My heart breaks for him. He's been having all these nightmares with flashbacks lately, and i hate that i can't help him.

"I know love, i wish i could help you more. Can you tell me what it was about" i ask
"I... it was about Ben..." he says

I feel myself getting angry. Of course it was about Ben. I hate how much Ben has affected Charlie. I hate that Ben did that to him.

Charlie's perspective:

As I'm laying in Nick's arms i feel myself starting to relax again. He Always has this Way of making me feel safe. He is my safe person. He Always knows how to Ground me when i have a nightmare or a panic attack. I feel so safe in his arms. He hasnt Said anything since i Said it was about Ben. But i know Its because he's angry at Ben. Or well i hope thats Why?

"Are you mad at me...?" i ask
"What!? No, not at all. Why would you Think that. You did nothing wrong" he says

"Well i dont know. I just feel like i Always ruin your life. Like I'm a burden. You can't even get your sleep because I'm here having nightmares everyday. I feel Like maybe your life would just be better if i didn't exist."

"No. Charlie. My life is better because you exist. You make my life so much better. You make my life perfect. The only thing thats bothering me is that you we're treated the Way you were. I'm mad at Ben for ruining your life. I'm mad at Harry and the others for giving you such a hard teenage life. I'm mad at me for not standing up for you back Then-"

"You didnt know me Nick" i say Feeling bad that Nick is Feeling as this because of me

"I know, but i should have done something. But just please remember i love you. And whenever you're Feeling Down you need to talk to me so i Can help you. I love helping you when you need it."

"..Okay...."

"I love you Charlie"

"I love you too"

I snuggle back into him and start Feeling more calm again. How does he do it? How does me make me feel so good? Its something I'll Always wonder. As I'm thinking about all the times Nick helped me i feel his breathing slow Down meaning he has fallen back asleep. I dont blame him though. He's been awake every night the past week helping me out of my nightmares.

I turn around so that I'm now looking at his face. He looks so peaceful. His hair is hanging infront of his eyes and his mouth is slightly open. I start counting his freckles. Its something i do when i need to sleep, but can't. Its so therapeutic as I'm reaching 60 i start Feeling my eyelids closing and soon I'm alseep.

Nick's perspective:

I wake up the next morning and see that Charlie is peacefully asleep next to me. The duvet is almost covering all of his face only showing his closed eyes. I slowly get out of bed and make my Way downstairs to make him a cup of coffee. I walk back upstairs and Charlie is thankfully still alseep altough he did move and is now hugging my pillow.

I bend Down next to the bed and gently let my hand Lay against his cheek brushing my thumb over it.

"Char, Its time to wake up"

"Mhmm" he grunts

I chuckle at his cute sound.

"Love Its past 10, i made you coffee"

"Come back to beddddd..."

"Fine" i say. How could i resist his cute morning voice.

I sit with my back against the Wall and he Lays himself between my legs looking up at me.

"Are you Feeling better after last night love?" I ask

"Yeah, Thank you again. I'm Sorry I'm Always doubting wheter you love me or not. Its just my brain messing with me" he says

"I know. But please try to remember it. You're the love of my life char. Theres nothing and No one Else in this life for me than you. If we had to live on a raft in the middle of the Ocean to be with eachother i would do it. I can't picture my life without you"

Tears forms in his eyes as the Words leave my mouth.

"I love you Nick"

"I love you Charlie. Now drink your coffee"

"Thank you love" he says grabbing the coffee cup taking a sip.