My Love (Junjou Romantica Fanfic)

Chapter 1: Why does my heart pound so hard?

(Misaki's point of view)

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Baka!

Stupid Usagi-san!

Don't touch me stupid!

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These are the words that I use to shove my feelings away. Every time they would try to make their grand entrance I would do my best to silence them. But lately it has been a lot harder to keep my real feelings from running loose. It is definitely not helping that Usagi-san has been sticking to me like glue these days, that is mostly because of some problems writing his latest book.

"I just can't think lately, maybe I just need to recharge my Misaki meter." He says lamely.

"Baka! That is not even a real thing!" I reply angrily.

This is how the conversation goes every time, he then jumps me and does whatever he feels like. Today after he let me go I needed time to clean the house and start dinner. So he went up to his office and started working on the book. While vacuuming the living room he started invading my thoughts again. Why do I let him do this? He needs to get to work on his book right now! But, I can't say that it doesn't make he really happy that he is spending all of his time with me. WAIT, no I did not mean it like that, he is a pervert and I would never like him. I DON'T like him! But, maybe I do a little bit. NO, I DON'T LIKE HIM AT ALL!
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I don't know anymore, my head hurts.

As my head starts to pound I sit on the couch and hug my sides. Why is my heart beating so loud? I have to work out my feelings once and for all. What do I really think of Usagi-san? That is easy, he is a very weird person, is awful when he wakes up, uses other peoples bodies as toys. This is not really helping. What do I like about him? Well, the way his face changes in small ways when he is reading a good book. His eyes are like lilac whirlpools, they draw you in and never let go. The way he says that he is just happy to stay with me, even when I am really rude to him. Just thinking these things makes me shiver, why do I feel this way? I can't find the word for what I am feeling. WAIT! NOPE! I can't be, can I? Am I in love with Usagi-san? I feel my face and ears flush with heat. Just as I was about to find the answer I heard that voice.

"Misaki, is dinner ready yet?" He asks.

Oh so now he's normal, Baka! As I try to reply my throat feels like it is going to close up and no words come out.

"Misaki, is dinner ready yet?" He asks.

Hearing his voice makes me jump off the couch and instinctively try to escape from the room. After I calm down a little the anger starts to rise. Why does he always have to do that to me, he scares me like that and acts as though it is normal?

As I try to reply my throat feels like it is going to close up and no words come out. It is just a mixture of angry grumbling and the whimpering of tears not shed before he came down.

"Misaki is everything alright? You're not saying anything." He questions further.

My face feels like it is on fire, why does he need to come out of his office right now. I look away hoping he does not see the blush on my face and the mistiness of my eyes.

"Y-Yeah I'm fine, so um what did you want for dinner?" I asked meekly.

Please don't notice my voice shaking, and stop looking at me it makes my blush burn even hotter. Those beautiful irises always burn holes throughout my body and take everything that is mine.  I just can't take it anymore. He calls my name one more time, but hen is quiet, did he leave? Just then I am lifted onto a set of strong broad shoulders.

"BAKA!" I yell as I am forcefully tossed onto the couch.

What in the world does he think he is doing? He then comes close and invades the space that I had claimed my own only a few seconds ago. I then heard him start to laugh and he flashed that wicked smile as he leans closer. This is really bad.

*I have made some edits to this chapter after rereading it. And dear god there were so many things that didn't make any sense when I really thought about. So I changed a couple things that way it's not the most awful thing ever written. Chapter 2 will be coming out soon, working on it now so keep an eye out.*