The Alphas Beta

//5 - Damien//

The moonlight shone through the windows cast shadows around the bedroom. The silent sound filled the air as the only thing that could be heard was my heavy breathing. Clutching my head in my hands my mind was racing with a million thoughts. This was not how I had planned my birthday party to come out as. This had to be some cruel joke that was given to me by the Moon Goddess.

'Mate?' My wolf Ryan whimpered.

I was well aware that Ryan was unhappy about my decision to tell my father along with the rest of the pack that I had in fact not found my mate tonight. Letting out a grown I looked out the window as the moon was in the center of the dark night sky.

'I want Mate.' Ryan all but said above a whisper.

Ignoring his pleas got up and out of bed and made my way down stairs to get a glass of water. The silence in the house was haunting reminding me about the fact that Oliver was not in the same apartment as I was. Leaning on the counter I thought about the problem that I had just made. Oliver was my Mate and there was no point in denying that to myself.

My head felt like it was ready to explode at the thought that my best friend as well as my future Beta was my Mate. This was wrong and although I knew Oliver was my Mate part of me couldn't accept the fact that he was. I should have been Mated to a female so that they could produce an heir for the pack just as well as Olive should have. No matter how hard I thought about what had happened I simply was baffled at the thought of being Mated to a guy.

I was sure as hell sure I was straight. I couldn't remember any time that I had shown any affection of love towards any other male. Maybe love as in family love but never in a lover type of way. Placing the glass in the sink once I was done drowning myself with water, I made my way back up to my bedroom. The room was dark save the light that flowed out of the window from the moonlight.

Crawling into bed and pulling the covers over my body I knew that I would have to deal with the matter of being wrongly Mated to Oliver in the morning. Something I was not looking forward to at all. I knew that Oliver wouldn't mind as much as I would and that he would come to term with being Mated to me but I couldn't see myself being with Oliver as a lover. I was dating Cassandra as well.

'She's not our Mate. Oliver is. Oliver was made for us just like you were made for him.' Ryan growled out at the thought of Cassandra.

"Don't you think I know that? I'm dating Cassandra and I don't love Oliver in that way." I told him looking up at the ceiling.

'Cassandra is not our Mate, nor will she ever will be. Oliver is and you do love him.' He huffed out.

"No I don't." I scoffed at his reply.

'Even a blind man could tell that you loved him.' was his simple statement.

"I'm not in love with Oliver nor will I ever be. Tomorrow morning I will let him know that their is no way that I can accept him as my Mate. He should understand that this is what is best for the pack." I knew that it was the right thing to do.

'Is it Damien? Is it really what is best for the pack? Is it whats best for your heart as well as his?' and with that he cut off the connection between us.

Rolling over I pulled the covers up closer around myself. I could feel the few tears that fell form my eyes when I reached over the other side of the bed forgetting that Oliver was not with me in the same bed. Tonight was the first time in a long time that I had not slept with my best friend by my side. Closing my eye I let sleep take hold of my body before darkness consumed my thoughts.