CARDIGAN- J. HUGHES

Fifteen

When you are young they assume you know nothing

It's been a few days since the wedding and things here have shifted. Everything feels different. For one, I literally can't get a second of peace because one of the guys is constantly with me and making sure that Rory can't even breathe within 10 feet of me. I also noticed that Sienna and Jack were off. They were constantly fighting and not sitting near each other or even being at the same place at the same time.

Is it stupid and pathetic that I notice this shit? I guarantee you no one else does. I also guarantee you no one else notices the ring on her finger, my ring. Even though they're fighting she still has it on. It makes me sick to my stomach every time it catches the light.

Currently, me and Luke were on the beach together in a cabana eating snacks and taking in the sights and sounds of Hawaii. It was just so beautiful here. The beauty did get distorted by the view of Sienna sat on Jack's lap, though they were fighting again. I could tell by the way they were both waving their arms around and the expressions on their faces. But even still, the way she sat perched up on his thigh made me want to gauge my eyes out.

"Hey Luke?" I asked, eyes still zeroed in on the not so happy couple.

"What's up Lil?" His eyes followed mine and he groaned. "Stop doing this to yourself"

"No wait listen," I began. "What's going on with them?"

"I don't know. If I had a guess he clearly still has feelings for you and she can sense it and is pissed about being strung along" Luke shrugged. I shot him a glare.

"Yeah ok." I scoffed. "He does not have feelings for me Luke. He lost them long ago" I huffed, finally peeling my eyes away from them. To be honest it reminded me of me and him. When I was losing him and I didn't realize how bad I truly was losing him.

"Not true." Luke countered. "It's so obvious Lily. I swear you have to be blind"

"Trust me Luke. If you love someone you don't do what he did" I could feel the sadness seeping through the cracks as memories and key moments flooded my brain. I wished they hadn't. "But who am I kidding, he never loved me. Atleast he never said it if he did" I sighed.

"He's a pussy" Luke shrugged. "And it's been long enough, I feel like after cleaning up your vomit I deserve to know the story" he laid on his stomach beside me and looked up patiently.

I guess it was time. "Fine... get ready Lukey" i muttered as I sat up, straightening my back and giving Jack and Sienna one last glance before I dove into my memories, ready to finally recall and tell Luke what happened.

"It wasn't just one day we broke up, there were Incidents. Key incidents come to mind when I look back on it now..."

Late January (the weekend after the previous flashback)- Nico was hosting a team and family bonding, meaning the team was bringing their closest friends or family to his house and we were all going to be hanging out together as a group. Jack had asked me to go with him a few days ago, saying that Luke couldn't go because of a UMich game and he originally wanted us both to come.

Of course I said yes. In fact, I was really excited to go mainly because I would get to see Jack. Being in school at University of Michigan kept us apart and any chance I had with him I savored. "I'm really excited to go out tonight, I love your team mates-" my voice caught in my throat as I saw Jack sat on the couch of his apartment watching college football, in sweat pants and a tee shirt.

"I don't want to go anymore" he didn't even look over at me to see I was already fully ready to go. He didn't even acknowledge that I was literally just speaking about how excited I was to go out with everyone. He eventually did around, running his eyes over my body. "You do look beautiful though baby" he complimented.