This feeling~ Muitan Long shots

~Regret~

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Muichiro POV

I decided to go to Tanjiro's house because I wanted to tell him how much I truly cared about and loved him. Once I got there I barely touched the door when it was swung open.

"Oh- Hey Mui! Did you need something? Im kinda in a hurry..." Tanjiro said while he was breathing hard.

"Are you okay?- And why such a hurry in the first place?" I asked, upset that I may not be able to tell him.

"Mission. Anyway, need something?" 

"Oh, I can wait till you're back I guess..."

"Ya'sure? You can tell me now."

"It's gonna take long for me to get out... yea I'm sure."

He nodded and sprinted out the door, he turned to wave at me, and I sadly waved back. Before I knew it he was out of my sight, I deeply sighed.

Once I was back at my place I sat down and just decided to wait not trying to think of how long this mission would be.

But regardless I tried pushing through. Hours, days, weeks... months passed still no sign of him. I asked the rest of the hashira if we could search for him but they already sent Mizoto to help find him... but still nothing. Not a single trace was left behind.

"This isn't fair!" I screamed at Shinobu, with tears in my eyes and stormed off. I went outside and hid under a tree, I slumped in the shade now crying.

'Where is my Tanjiro? What could've happened to him? Did he purposely leave? No- he wouldn't just leave Nezuko behind. Plus he would say bye to everyone...' 

I held my knees to my chest, sobbing into them. It shouldn't be this way...

I sat there for hours most of the time spent just sitting there letting my mind wander.

After a while, I got up and grabbed my sword. Without telling anyone, I walked into the forest. I was tired of waiting. Tired of just sitting there and not doing anything. I wanted answers, I wanted to know if my love was still out there.

Once I was far enough from HQ I didn't have to worry about being more quiet than I normally was. I suddenly paused, contemplating what to do out here.

I started to remember the fun times me and Tanjiro had. Tears filled my eyes. I dropped my sword when I realized what Shinobu said and what I had to accept.

~Flashback~

"Tokito-san... maybe it's time- that we well... start thinking about something else that happened. Like, is he still out there-?"

"No! Don't say it! He's stronger than that! I just know it, he's not-" Tears filled my eyes, and something in my throat, made me stutter on my words. 

"He's not..." My voice cracked at the thought.

"Tokito-san, please. Im sorry, it's the only thing that makes sense right now..."

"No... He's not gone! He- he can't be..."

Shinobu gave me a sympathetic look. 

"He's not gone, he is too strong!" Before she could say another word I walked off.

~End of Flashback~ 

"Tanjiro please!" I screamed.

"If you can hear me, please! Give me a sign! They gave up but I won't!" I pleaded in the air. I knew it was useless but I didn't care. I just wanted him back.

I fell onto my knees. "Please... come home," I cried. 

I heard a snap... I flung my head up, looking in the direction of the sound.

It was a figure that looked similar.

Once my eyes adjusted, I gasped when I realized who it looked similar to... No, who it WAS. 

"T-Tanjiro?" I asked, he was looking down at me, he looked shocked. Like in a confused way. I then realized another thing- his eyes... they were more red in pigment.

"Mui..." He mumbled, he showed his teeth... his inhumane sharp teeth.

"You're... not human anymore... are you?" I asked, he just crouched down.

"I- have a lot to apologize for... for starters leaving you like this. And..." He hesitated I didn't want him to stop talking, I hadn't heard his vanilla sweet voice in so long. I didn't want him to stop talking.

"And... for not being strong enough-"

"Why would you say that?!" I demanded not thinking.

He chuckled unhumoursely. 

"Mui, have you seen me? Im a demon now. I wasn't strong enough-"

"Please Tanjiro... tell me this is some cruel prank!" 

He slightly smiled at me with his warm smile. He cupped my face in his hands and tears filled his eyes.

"Im so so sorry Mui. For leaving you, for not being strong enough, for not giving you any hints, to not coming to say goodbye at all. And- for not telling the truth..."

"The truth?" I asked completely confused about this whole thing. 

"Yeah, the truth. That well," He chuckled this time with humor. "I love you, Mui."

I froze, "I- " I smiled, "Remember when I was trying to tell you something before you left?" He smiled back, "Yes, yes I do. Were you about to do the same?"

I slightly nodded. His smile grew wider for a second but then dropped completely. His entire aura changed. Like a sad aura. "I-Im sorry." He dropped my face.

"Please... don't leave again... we can be together, just please..."

"Im a demon... we can't be together, and I'm sorry I led you on just now..."

"That wasn't!-"

Suddenly I couldn't talk, my throat felt like it was clogging up. I was crying now. I didn't want him to leave... not again, not ever if I could've controlled it. I didn't care if we were a demon... I would just quit the demon slayer core, and me and him would've run away somewhere far and be together... happy, at last...

"Im sorry..." He said once more. I thought he was going to leave but he hugged me instead. I was trembling, not from fear- well yea from fear... of losing him. Again.

He let go and walked up to my sword, "What are y-you doing?" I asked not understanding any of it. He unsheathed the sword. And got into a position where he could easily slice off his head. "If... I can't be with you here..."

He started.

"No... Tanjiro NO!" I gasped for air, it felt like I couldn't move.

"Then I'll wait for you in heaven..." He finished.

"NO!" I reached out for him but it was too late... he beheaded himself... "Can't wait for our little reunion..." He joked as he disintegrated.

I hugged his head, and after a while, I was holding onto myself...

I looked up at the now shining sky, I couldn't wait to see him again... but I knew if I did it right now, he'd be angry with me. 

"I love you, Tanjiro..."

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Should I make a Part 2 for this one??

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