This feeling~ Muitan Long shots

Mental cuts...

Im thinking about ending this series and start focusing on my other projects. Thoughts? Also, sorry I haven't posted recently, I've been writing different stories.

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- Muichiro POV -

I hissed in pain as I cut my skin once more. It's not like anyone would care... I cried as I kept reminding myself that no one loved me... that Yui was just defensive because he wanted to look nice... and that Tanji was just with me because he felt pity for me and didn't love me.

The floor was covered in my blood and so was my clothes. It hurt but I wanted to keep going. It felt good, so I kept going.

I soon ran out of space to cut on my wrists and arms. So... I decided to finish the job. I held the kn!fe to my throat. I hesitated when a thought hit me.

'Should I write a note?' I kept hesitating, 'W-What if Yui does care? What if... Tanji loves me and always has. How would he react when he saw what I've done to myself?' I put the kn!fe down, and slightly pushed it away.

'This was insane! Hurting myself for things that were mere theories!' I looked at my wrists and arms.

"T-Tanjiro..." I nearly yelled. I heard his worried footsteps running up the stairs of our home to our bedroom.

He opened the bathroom door... "Mui!!" He ran to me and hugged me. Warmth enveloped me, making me now 100% regretting what I just did.

"Wh-What happened?!! Why?" He was crying, holding my bloody left arm. At the same time, I sobbed into his shoulder.

"I-Im sorry... I t-thought, that you didn't l-love me..."

"What? Of course, I love you! I've always loved you and you know that!" He said in concern.

"I-I know and I'm sorry! I shouldn't have... should've never..." My words were interrupted by my sobs.

Tanjiro reached his arm in the cabinet under the sink, pulling out bandages, he stuck his arm in again and pulled out wipes made for skin. He grabbed a towel that was hung by the tub, wet it with cold water, and started wiping my wrists and arms.

The whole time he was cleaning me, I sobbed, apologizing each time he shed a tear or flinched at the cuts. He finished bandaging the last of my right arm, while my left was already done.

He made me look at him by caressing my cheek. In which I leaned into. He tried to smile but it quickly faltered and he gave up, "You know I'll always love you right??"

I hesitated, "Yes, I know... you said it in you're vows," I giggled weakly, stroking the ring on my finger. He chuckled as well and pulled me into a hug, which I hugged back.

"Thank you for telling me, love," He said in a muffled voice from kissing my hair.

After staying like that for a while, I looked up at Tanjiro, I weakly pulled my head up the highest I could without hurting myself.

Tanjiro chuckled and leaned down, he kissed me, and I kissed back. 

We pulled away and stayed in a hug for a while, "I-I don't know if I'll heal completely..."

"Don't worry, I'll be there to make sure you do, to make sure you're happy inside out," I giggled again.

"I love you," I mumbled.

"You said that in you're vows too," We both laughed.

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Sorry this was short but I'm too busy crying to care TvT

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