Just Sex Mates (boyxboy)

Chapter 21: Drama.

I was awake but still cuddled up to a sleeping Connor when the alarm went off at 9am. I had awoken earlier but couldn't go back to sleep. My eyes had lingered on Connor, feasting on him as he lay sleeping.

He had satisfied me last night both sexually and emotionally yet my mind was full of questions that I was wanting answers for. It was then that I missed not having Taylor to talk things through with.

Connor stirred. "Morning gorgeous," he murmured before pulling me into a kiss, his hand cupping the back of my head. I could tell he was wanting more.

I tried to pull away but his hold was firm. "Connor...., please. My breath must smell foul and I need to clean up first."

"You not keen on morning sex then?" He asked, looking a little disappointed.

"It's not that.... It's just that I have got this bloody wedding to go to and I need to get a move on."

"Sounds like you're not wanting to go. How's about skipping it? We could stay in bed all day. You could always say that you weren't feeling well, couldn't you?"

I glared at him as I pulled right out of his embrace and stood up. "Yeah right! And risk having my Dad told that I was drunk and not ill? No way!"

A smile formed on Connor's face as he sat up in the bed, adjusting the pillows to make himself comfortable. "It's not like you to care what anyone else thinks. From what I've heard I didn't think you were close to your Dad."

"I'm not.... It's just that I like the idea of having my Dad in my life again.  I know he let me down as a kid but he's different now. He's changed. Besides, I promised his wife-to-be I would go. She's really nice." 

Connor stood up and took me in his arms. "You sure you didn't accept the invitation just to see that so-called stepbrother-to-be sex mate of yours again?" His tone was laced with sarcasm.

"At the time that was a major influence, granted, but that wasn't the main reason. It was just that Dad was reaching out and I was wanting him to see that I was fine with them getting married and being mature about it by accepting."

"I'm not sure it's a good idea... you know, you going to this wedding. You're too easily seduced."

"Are you saying I'm easy?"

He waggled his eyebrows at me suggestively. "Well, aren't you?" The smile left his face. "Look.... I don't want you to go as he was wanting to fuck you last night and I don't think he'd have changed his mind by today, do you?"

"I'm not interested in him anymore. He can want me as much as he wants but he's not going to fuck me again." I tore myself yet again from his hold and went and showered. 

As the water cascaded over me I just hoped that Connor bought my lie. One of the reasons I was still going was because of Saxon. Seeing him last night had made me realise that even after spending a fabulous night being fucked halfway to heaven and back by Connor, part of me was still infatuated by Saxon. Something still intrigued me.

Is that so wrong of me?

Saxon had been a good fuck. So had Connor. It was hard to say who had been the best. It was too close to call, but I clearly wasn't over Saxon.

Had I been in love with him without realising?

My thoughts were in turmoil as I showered myself clean. I wanted answers. Proper answers to why Saxon broke our agreement. I was sure that Saxon had been wanting to take me home last night so he could restart our sex mates relationship again. In a way I wouldn't mind that happening because it suited me more. I knew that I needed to purge Saxon out of my system before embarking on any form of relationship with Connor, or anyone else for that matter. It was all very well Connor asking me to date him but I could sense that there was no way he would stand me fucking with anyone else while we dated, let alone fucking with Saxon, especially once he knew who he really was.