Just Sex Mates (boyxboy)

Chapter 27: Closure.

Tom tapped my arm "Freddie...? Are you okay? You've gone very quiet."

"Did I hear right? You said Paul has a libido problem. Does that mean he can't get hard?"

"He has difficulty maintaining an erection. He has low testosterone levels so has to be careful with his diet." Tom answered, looking at me rather oddly. "Don't tell me that's what Taylor's problem is too?"

"Mmnnn, yes. He's recently started having treatment and it's been quite traumatic for him as he's still rather confused about things."

"Aw! Come on Freddie..... Don't tell me that's the reason he's not your boyfriend?"

I nodded. "He told his specialist that he couldn't be my boyfriend unless he got a boner. You know...., I understand that, 'cos if I'm being honest, I don't think our relationship would survive if I wasn't being fucked."

"You're both crazy. Haven't you thought about using toys? We do.... Regularly. They can be a really good method of stimulation."

"But don't you miss having proper sex? Toys can't be that wonderful, surely?"

"They can seriously improve your sex life if you buy the right ones. Paul often uses them on me. They work perfectly well... It's fine... It's just something we do that helps our relationship function on all levels."

"You're a bottom now too?" I asked, not quite believing what Tom had just divulged.

"I don't restrict myself to just being active or passive. Sex should be free of any restraints and hang ups, Freddie. You were never interested in fucking me although I wouldn't have minded you trying. It was Paul that introduced me the joys of being fucked and now I understand why you love it so much. I enjoy it, but it's not something that I just want to do. I don't just want to be defined as a top or a bottom. I want to enjoy both whenever I feel like it."

"Connor is versatile and I fucked him... or should I say he fucked himself with my dick. I just lay back and let him ride me. It was okay...., he seemed to get more pleasure from it than I did, but I didn't feel immensely satisfied afterwards..., not like when I get fucked."

"Bloody hell, Freddie..... Giving in sex is just as important as taking. If Connor was enjoying it then it should have satisfied you too. You obviously don't love him."

I pulled a face. "Giving is something I've never done before."

Tom playfully nudged me. "You're well in need of a boyfriend as that would cure that. Seeing him enjoying you giving him pleasure is such a great feeling."

"We'll see," I answered, still not convinced. "I prefer it when a guy makes me come when he does."

"You're missing out, Freddie. I got the impression earlier that, regardless of the fact that you said Connor lied to you, you weren't sure whether you really liked him. Is it the fact that he's versatile?"

"No!" I answered brusquely. "I was miffed with him for not coming with me. He wouldn't miss a bloody game of football. It was the way in which he said he couldn't come with me that did it.... It was as if the game was more important to him than me."

"You've only just started seeing each other. Taking him to a wedding would have scared him shitless. Relationships need building, Freddie, they don't just happen. Anyway I'm not surprised that he didn't want to come..., what with Tudor and Saxon being here."

"He didn't know. I haven't told him who Saxon is." I admitted and immediately felt guilty.

Tom gave me a disapproving look. "Why the secrecy? If you had been honest with him and what Tudor had told you was true he would have been on his toes and out the door like a flash."