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32- his love

Antonio pov-

"We are all here today to honor one of the greatest who unfortunately God has taken too soon"

Today is the day of my dad's funeral and it's been 48 hours since he had passed. I haven't spoken a word to anyone. I want to honor my dad and not speak. Ezzyln has been taking me to my showers, putting on my clothes, and feeding me for the last two days.

Can you even believe that? A grown man getting taken care of by his woman like he's some baby

I know my dad will be so disappointed but I'm disappointed in him too. For not fighting and giving up so soon. Does he not realize he had a family and couldn't only leave mom in charge of everything?

It's so difficult not giving up but I need to be strong for everyone else because no one else is going to do it for me

That's what my dad at least would've wanted. I at least owe him that

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When we came home from the funeral I went straight to our room and waited for Ezzyln

She comes in a little after not noticing me waiting and kicks her heels off before laying on the edge of the bed.

"Ezzy, come here" 

she almost seemed shocked that I talked to her

She shyly walked over to me

I pointed to my lap to indicate to sit on it. 

She sits on it and I wrap my arms around her and hug her. There's nothing more to do 

"You know your dad loved you so much, more than he could describe in words. Don't try to follow in his footsteps because no matter what you do, he will always smile down at you from above." She whispers in my ear 

What did I do to deserve such a woman? She was an angel sent from heaven. 

"What did to deserve you?" I ask softly in her ear

"Nothing but being an amazing dad to our kids and being the best hubby to me"

"Let's go, we have a flight to catch"

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After getting home from our flight, Ezzy went to sleep because of the jet lag. I just couldn't fall asleep. I was lying in bed with the most beautiful girl in the world, a baby girl in the other room, and a baby on the way. 

I had to preoccupy myself. I leave the bed, change into something more appropriate, head downstairs, and grab my keys. 

I drive straight to the only pizza shop open at the moment- Domino's and I order a large sausage pizza

Growing up my dad always came home with a sausage slice of pizza from the finest bakery every Friday. My mom hated it she thought that it would make him grow to have diabetes so she would force him to split the pizza into five slices so all of us could share and we would giggle and share stories about school or work. 

When I moved out, the tradition stopped. I never felt guilty about it until now

I sat and ate my pizza while thinking of my father and everything he went through alone. I couldn't stop thinking about it and it just made me cry more than usual. 

I hear a knock on the car window to look up to see Ezzy at the window looking in

"I roll it down, "Ezzyln, what are you doing here?"

"I woke up in the middle of the night to find that my soon-to-be husband was not home and nowhere to be found. Knowing what you do for work, I got worried, so I packed Lily into the car and tracked down your location on my phone. Baby, I understand you're going through so much right now, but that's why you want to marry me. To be with you through thick and thin, no matter what. It's my job to look out for you because I'm your future wife and I am carrying your child and we have to attempt to make this work Antonio."

I felt worse than ever; my family was being just as affected by this as much as it was affecting me. I never want them to go through such hurt especially if it's my mess to clean up.

I stepped out of my car and hugged Ezzyln, who was now a crying mess. "I'm so sorry, baby. I would never do this again, and I'll always let you know. I'm never leaving your side baby"

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Hey GUYS, 

I know I haven't uploaded in such a long time and I'm so sorry. Life has been so crazy and I'm officially a senior!!!!!

Sorry, this is such a short chapter. Trust me the next one is going to be so good and juicy and it's coming out in a week from today or even earlier. 

Also, Thank you all so much for the underlying support. So many of you guys personally reached out through my Instagram, wattpad comments, etc. to make sure I was okay. Sincerely appreciate all of you!!!

Bye my loves until next time

- xoxo, chelsea