his love, his touch, his tesoro

31- his toesoro

Antonio pov-

We had landed an hour ago and we were heading to my parent's house. I'm honestly so terrified of what's happening. I'm in the mafia, I have witnessed deaths before but my dad has been there for me since day one. 

He has pulled me out of many situations that I thought were impossible to get out of. He helped me when I was depressed or when I had my first girlfriend.

Ezzy shakes me waking me up and telling me we had finally made it to the house but for some reason, I didn't move. Maybe it's because a part of me didn't want to be true. I wanted to wake up from a dream and know my dad's health was going to be okay. 

As if Ezzyln was reading my mind she takes her hand into mine and says " I'm here with you every step of the way, no matter what. It's me and you together"

I smile at her and finally feel the courage to get out of the car. We enter the house where all the maids are looking at me with sympathy. My mom was at the top of the stairs waiting for us and she looked exhausted. Her eyes were droopy and you could tell her face would be facing some consequences from her crying. 

I climbed the stairs and hugged her, it finally hit me that I may never see my dad again after this trip and the tears started coming and wouldn't stop. My mom started crying too and I heard sniffles behind me and realized Ezzyln was crying too. I pull her into the hug as well.

"He wants to see Ezzyln first" My mom softly speaks 

"me?" Ezzyln says confused and I'm just as confused too. 

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Ezzyln pov- 

I knock before hearing an soft "come on in" 

"Hi Mr. Esposito, how are you feeling" 

"Please call me pops or something, come sit down"

I sit down on the hospital bed where he lays

His sclera in his eyes were no longer white but yellow instead, he looked weaker and tired. 

"Before Antonio met you, there was a woman in his life who had killed him on the inside. She left him for dead physically and mentally. I would cry myself to sleep at night knowing that my boy was in pain and there was nothing I could do for him. I remember the first time he met you that night he called me and said that he said a few things about that he might have regretted but he couldn't stop thinking about you. I told him to chase after you. "

He took off his glasses before continuing

"Ezzyln you bring out that light in him. You do the one thing I couldn't do, you brought my son back to life. We both know I won't make it to the wedding but I don't need to see it because knowing you guys are soulmates are enough for me. I love you like your my own and I just wanted to tell you thank you. Thank you for always believing in him. Thank you for always being their for him. Thank you for giving him a kid and Lily. I am forever grateful for you."

Now I'm the crying mess and I can't stop crying. He started coughing a lot suddenly and I help him. 

"Please call Antonio in here" He says 

I give him an hug and I kiss his forehead and say "You made him into he is now. You are the reason his so courageous and confident and will kill anyone in his way to protect his family. I love you dad" 

I leave the room and call Antonio in. He looks terrify as if he knows this is the last time he will talk to his dad and that pains me so much. 

He walks into the room and I just breakdown.

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Antonio pov-

Ezzyln walks out and now she's the one that's in pain. I wish I can hug her and tell her it will be okay but I don't even know myself. 

I walk into the room and I can't even hold back my tears when I see him. He looks like a ghost and he's barely hanging on. 

"Papa" I cry out and run to him

He has tears in his eyes and I just know

"son, there not any longer for me. I don't even know where to start but Thank you. Thank you for teaching me how to love. Thank you for being my son. When I first saw you I knew me and you were going to be inseparable. I have taught you all I know and I can only pray you will be a better version for your kids and for Ezzyln. She has loved you with all her heart and she still has more love for you. Be strong for my wife, my beautiful beautiful wife, for siblings, your kids and for yourself. Be strong because that's the only thing you can hold on to. Our memories and love for each other will reconnect us one day. I love you so much Antonio Esposito. Until we meet again son."

With that you can hear the a long screeching noise. He's not breathing no more and my world comes collapsing. I can feel Ezzyln holding onto me and praying but I don't say anything. My body is not letting me. I don't feel any energy to  hug her back or to say anything. 

In a heartbeat, I had just lost my best friend.

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Hi you guys, 

I couldn't hold back my tears when writing this. If you need anyone to talk to, I'm always here for anyone. 

It's okay to have those days where you can't stop crying. It's okay to have the days where all you want to do is sit down and cry. It's okay to have those days where you lay in the bed all the day. 

If no one has every told you it's okay to not to be okay.

I love you guys and until next time!

-Chelsea