Wish You Were Here (Bonten Rindou Haitani X Fem. OC)

Chapter Eleven:

Content Warning: Mentions of depression, anti-depressants, and suicidal ideation.

"Ryoko...please..." I quietly whine, trying to hold back the flood of tears threatening to escape.

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I hear a small groan and I have never felt more relieved in my entire life.

"Hey, big sis."

Kaede POV

A week has passed.

A week has passed since I lost Ayuri.

The girl who has been a younger sister to me for as long as I can remember.

How do I feel?

Numb.

I guess I can thank my medication for that.

Natsu hasn't spoken a word to anyone since the incident.

I don't blame him, I probably wouldn't talk to anyone either if I wasn't in charge around here.

Ryoko is doing...okay?

I don't even know if he qualifies as being okay.

The doctor said that he lost a lot of blood...several stab wounds...broken ribs...a minor concussion...

...I really thought I was going to lose him...

I don't think I could have come back from losing both Ayuri and my brother.

I don't think I would want to come back from that.

Being trapped in this never ending cycle of violence we are in is unbearable.

But it's slightly more bearable with the people around me that I've chosen as my family.

But my family is slowly dwindling in numbers. 

First my mother, then my father...now Ayuri.

'Rindou...'

I haven't had the mental capacity yet to unpack what happened at the masquerade a week ago.

But once I do, I'll...

'You don't even know what you'll do.'

Shut it, stupid inner monologue.

Since the incident, we've been on overdrive.

The house has been filled to the brim with members of HQ investigating the situation, leaving no time for Ryoko, Natsu, and I to grieve.

The leader of the Yakuza even insisted on replacing her, suggesting it so casually as if she hadn't just been brutally murdered a week ago.

As if we weren't just about to attend her funeral.

Because of the state of grieving that Natsu's in and the physical condition my little brother's in, planning the funeral has solely fallen onto me.