i got bored so i wrote this instead of sleeping hahahahahahahah send help
ALSO WARNING FOR ATTEMPTED SU!C!D3!!!! This is my first time writing it so it's probably bad but yea
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It all started with a small disagreement, which led to the two screaming loudly at each other.
"I'M JUST SAYING YOU'RE ACTING LIKE A SADISTIC ASSHOLE!" Trevor yelled.
"WELL AT LEAST I'M NOT A FUCKING SNOWFLAKE!" Derek yelled back.
"JUST BECAUSE I'M AFRAID OF THUNDER DOESN'T MEAN I'M A SNOWFLAKE!! IT'S NOT MY FAULT I HAVE AUTISM!"
"I DON'T CARE! I DON'T GIVE TWO SHITS ABOUT IT OR YOU! JUST FUCKING GET OUT YOU STUPID FUCKING BITCH!!" Trevor's angry expression fades into a sad one, a broken one. He can feel tears bubbling up in his eyes. Derek realizes what he had just said, but it's too late. Trevor's already out of the door.
TREVOR'S POV
What did I do wrong? That sentence repeated in my head over and over again as I walked away from our shared tent. Does he hate me? This was all my fault. Everything i do is bad. I don't matter.
I trudged on into the woods, going farther and farther and letting tree branches scratch and cut me. I didn't care. I deserved it.
I finally got to a spot where i couldn't even see the camp anymore. All i could see were trees, and trees, and rocks, and trees. I sat on the ground, and tears continued to stream down my face like a river. Look at this idiot. Running away from his problems, like always. No wonder Derek didn't want him there. No one wants him. I tried to shoo the voices but they wouldn't leave.
Just do it. Leave. Leave this earth, it's better off without you. No one will notice you're gone. Just do it. They continued to ring throughout my head, over and over and over and over. I walked even farther, until i found a river. There you go. Do it there. Where you're body will be washed away until it's undiscoverable. Not like anyone will try and find it.
I sat on the edge of the rushing river. I didn't want to die, i wanted to live, but what for? I serve no purpose other than being a burden. They're right, i should just do it. I stood, and looked over the waters. So inviting, like it was saying 'come on, jump it here.' i took a step forward. Goodbye world. I don't belong here anymore. And i jumped.
I was submerged. The brink of death was coming. Finally. The water muffled every sound around me, i could barely hear my own thoughts.
I felt my sight getting dimmer, the end was coming. It all went dark.
DEREK'S POV
"TREVOR!" I called out. "WHERE ARE YOU?!" I ran as fast as i could. I had no clue where i was going. "I shouldn't have yelled at him, i shouldn't have let my temper get to me. This was all my fault."
I kepted running. I had found his tracks and followed them. Everything felt like it was spinning, my thoughts becoming overwhelming with worry. I NEED to know if he's okay. Please, be okay.
A splash sound occurred, snapping me out of my thoughts. I sprinted towards the sound, and then i saw him.
His eyes were shut, and he was upside down. He tried to drown himself, all because of me.
"TREVOR!" Adrenaline rushed into my veins and i leaped into the water. Thankfully it wasn't too deep, or too cold. I grabbed Trevor out of the water and got him on shore as fast as i possibly could.
I layed him down on the grass, and checked his pulse. "Trevor, please. Please, i'm sorry! I'll never do anything like that again! PLEASE!" I sobbed as i gave him chest compressions, trying everything to get him to wake up. Tears were streaming down my face, and my breathing was shaking more than a maraca.
After 30 seconds or so, he finally started to spit up water. "TREVOR!" I backed up a bit, to give him some space to breathe. He opened his eyes, them being bloodshot. Probably from crying. Why did i do this to him? How could i?
"Huh...? What...?" He mumbled, disoriented. I scooted back over to him and squeezed him tightly.
"Im so sorry. I'm so sorry that i ever said anything like that to you. I promise i'll never to that again. I promise. I'm so sorry..." i kept rambling on, saying i was sorry.
"It's not your fault, i was the one who did this to myself. I took it to hard. I am a snowflake." He says, hugging back.
"No, you're not. And i'm the one who caused you to do this. I should have never called you any of those horrible things. you 're the strongest, nicest, hottest, most amazing person in the entire world. I love you no matter what. You're the best."
We stayed there, hugging and letting our remaining tears out. We walked back to camp, super tired. Guess we're postponing the challenge, but honestly, i don't care. I'm just happy Trevor's okay, and i'm going to make sure i never do or say anything like i did today again.
