Broken 2:A Second Chance

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I held back the urge to yell when I heard what the doctor said.

Leukaemia?

"That can't be." Josh said and tugged onto his hair.

I blinked back the tears that threatened to fall.

"I am unsure of how he got it but the test results are clear." The male doctor says while looking at me apologetically.

"I suggest we start his chemotherapy since his illness is in its earlier stages. And we will see where the boat flows." The doctor said with a slight smile.

I immediately broke down in tears when Josh hugged me. I felt terrible. I felt as if it was my fault.

"I'm a terrible mother." I sob. My little baby was in there and I knew nothing about it.

"Claire,Claire...calm down. You're not a terrible mother. In fact,you're the strongest woman I have ever met." Josh smiles and wipes the tears.

I smile a bit before composing myself.

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"Mommy,I'll be okay. Right?" Noah asked when I walked into his ward. It had been three hours and he was finally awake.
I bit back the tears and nodded. "You'll be fine baby. You'll be just fine." I said in a shaky voice. I was scared beyond my usual self. But I knew I had to be strong for him. For all of them.

"Baby,what happened at school." I asked while feeding him.

He took a bite if the food and said " I was playing with Lana and the I fell."

He looked at me with his doe eyes and blinked rapidly. Just then,Liam and Josh walked in.

"Are you okay?" Liam asked his brother. I could see faint tear marks.

"I'm fine." Noah answered and sipped his water.
"Lana cried when you fell." He continued. I could see a faint blush on Noah's face.

"Ooh oh oh." Josh teased. The man was twenty-five but he behaved as if he was five.

Noah laughed and went back to eating his food.

Whenever I looked at him,I wanted to cry,but I had to be strong.

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"I want a baby brother." Lukas said awhile we were at dinner. I spat my water back into the glass.

Edelle looked at Lukas and then at me. I wanted to tell him no but I saw how he looked at the other children with siblings whenever I went to pick him up.

"Um,Aunty Edelle is not ready." I lie,trying to pacify him. He blinked at me and went back to eating his food.

"We could try." Edelle says,looking at me. I frown and look away.

"Daddy,when will Mommy come back?" Lukas asks, indirectly igniting tension in the dining room.

I thought after all these years,he would forget about her. Guess I was wrong.

"She left you. Remember?" Edelle said to spite me.

I glared at her and she instantly caught my drift.

"Sorry." One thing I hated about Edelle was her attitude. She would be lovable and the next minute,she'll turn into some sort of jealous brat.

"Daddy.." Lukas looked at me as if he was waiting for an answer.

I hated times like these. I hated lying to him. I hated myself for letting Claire leave. I hated my self for letting him use like dirt.

I've hated myself for the past four years and every minute without her was torture.

Lukas had grown into a fine little boy,but he looked just like her. That was what killed me. He could have taken her character with my looks but he chose to take her looks. Real classy.

"Lukas,mommy has some things to handle in the UK,she'll be back. She will." I smiled wryly after saying that.

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"You okay?" Josh asked while leaning on the door leading to my bedroom. I wiped my eyes and nodded while trying to force on a smile. The past week had been hectic and because if that,I had filed for a leave.

"I'm okay. Where's Liam?" I asked in a hoarse voice.

"He's asleep." Josh said and walked up to me.

"Claire,you're the strongest woman I have ever seen. You've been through so much yet yours standing. I know you can push through this and I believe Noah will be okay." He said and held onto my hand.

I felt warm tears spring out when he said this. It had been so long someone said something so sweet to me.

"Josh.." I whispered and looked into his eyes.

He looked back at me and hugged me.

"Shh. Don't talk." He whispered while rubbing my back.

I blinked back the tears and exhaled a bit.

"What if they decide to do a surgery?" I asked,a wave of worry overtaking my senses.

"Then we'll find a marrow that matches his." Josh answered reassuringly.

I was beginning to feel as if something was amiss. Wrong. Totally wrong.

"What if,we go and visit South Wales when the boys vacate?" Josh suggested.

It was almost as if he had read my mind. I had been wanting to visit that place but never found the right excuse to do so. This would be just perfect.

"Oh,I was thinking about that." I said and began cleaning the room.

"Then it's settled, we're going to South Wales this vacation." Josh said and carried me out of the bed, spinning me until I got tired.