𝕵𝖚𝖘𝖙 𝕱𝖗𝖎𝖊𝖓𝖉𝖘...

Chapter 26: My morning day with my sweet thoughts POV: Bella

"I'm sweet and vulnerable what's wrong with that?" -Bella

Hey! You survived my brother's POV. Here's mine. Everything is sweet and normal.

I woke up hearing my brother's loud alarm. I groaned a bit, but the tiredness left my body quickly, remembering about Lucas. I might have to pull out my rose toy. But I won't, I have to get dressed. I sat on my bed and turned on my little lamp shining in my room. Taking the covers off my body I felt the cold and chilly air, my feet touching the floor became frozen. Feeling all of the cold sensations throughout my body I quickly made my way to my vanity sitting down and tying my hair in a messy but as I began to say my daily affirmations. "You are loved, you are cared for, you have people to talk to..." But I stopped there. The last part was a lie. I had no one to talk to, well yes. I did have my brother, but I didn't feel comfortable telling him everything, and the same with my father. Sometimes, I wish I had a mom to whom I could talk. I mean, I do have a mother, but she is not in our lives anymore. No, she left us... she left my dad.

I don't really like opening up so much about this specific part of my past, although it didn't happen to me, I still felt hurt for my father. Who became vulnerable just for her, hoping she would love him as much as he loved her. Loves her, but he still hasn't gotten over it. Okay, okay. I will tell you what happened, the way my father told me. He told my brother more details but not to me, they still wanted to keep me kind, sweet, and vulnerable.

So, it all began when my dad was so in love with my mother, Bellahexi. A  weird name don't you think? That's also my name but I prefer to be called   Bella. Anyway, my father was head over heels with her. He would buy her gifts, leave his work just to visit her, and give her his earnings so she could buy the things that she needed. He would be so vulnerable with her and he was so open with her that one day he decided to give her pleasure, he wanted to prove to her how much he loved her. So one night when he got off from work he drove over to her house and first he talked to her, wanting to make sure she was okay with everything.

After they had set their boundaries my father began to passionately kiss her, with so much love. Not even with lust! He guided her to the bedroom and they went on to be intimate with each other. But little did he know that what happened that night would change our lives forever. My mother got pregnant with me and Devin, we are twins. But I am the nicer one. Anyway, after giving birth to us, she decided that she didn't want to raise us because she was still young, her age was only 27. But I guess that's young... so she broke up with my father and left us with him. And that hit him hard, he went to being sad and depressed about her leaving, and just because he gave his body to her. His vulnerability and she just took it and ran! That's when he taught Devin to not be vulnerable and that messed him up badly.

After crying a bit facing my mirror I wiped my tears trying to forget what my father told me about his life story, which has always hurt me.  I asked Siri what's the temp outside and she said 30! Oh nah that's cold and I only had fancy clothing. So I decided to at least wear one of his sweaters, he lets me wear them at home. But never at school. I guess it's because he is with Dela and he just wants to let Dela feel special. But I am his sister! But Devin already told you what happened so let's skip to when we are at school.

I quickly got out of his car and ran to my friends with my backpack. "Hey, girls!" I exclaimed as I sat near a heater that was outside of school. "Okay, we need to talk we need to come up with a plan for me to talk to Lucas so he can warm me up." And that's when me and my friends began giggling like wild hyenas and began coming up with ideas. Shara one of my best friends since 4th grade came up with an amazing idea.

"Okay, so like what if you are just talking to him and you start to shiver. Oh, make your hands look red." Ok, that was an idea that I am going to use. But then Dela drove so quickly to school that they were before me and my friends and finished talking and bothered us by being DELULU! But, I quickly sprung up and ran, I ran and stopped right before Lucas could see me. I was freezing now, the cold breeze just hitting my skin and face. I was practically playing with my life right now. If he doesn't warm me up I will freeze and die. But if he warms me up, I will overheat with emotions and die! "Okay, Bella. Just play cool, act cool." And with that, I let out a loud squeal! Talk about being cool, but I am just being myself now. I ran up to him shouting his name, and that's when I saw Dela giving me these eyes... One that tells a story.

"Fuck off, Bella..."

And my eyes told another guy

"Now just take a good look at him. He is fine!!! FINE AF! I mean I could just melt just looking at him!"

And that's when I turned my face to Lucas and began starting up a conversation hoping he would follow and then warm me up.