Late Night Thoughts

You - June 17th, 2015

June 17th, 2015 - 2:00 am

YOU.

Please know that during our friendship, I have not once wanted to eat glass half as bad as the days before I had you. It usually passes without incident, but don't be gone for too long.

I have some advice for you. I would try to tell you this in person but the words would get too jumbled, my thoughts would be racing, it would be a mess. Word salad all over the place. That's why I'm writing it for you on some shitty website that you've probably never heard of, no one really reads this book, so I'm free to write what I want. I've been on this website for over a year and I haven't even gotten a lousy tee-shirt. But we'll get to that later.

Now, the advice thing. I'm trying to give you the straight facts here, so listen up. In order to survive this shitty thing we call life, you need to follow these steps:

1. It's okay to hold on tight...and to let go.

2. Don't doubt the things you know.

3. Make sure your clothes are clean.

4. If you're the only one at the party that isn't drunk, and your friend is throwing up in the toilet, don't be an asshole. Go hold up her hair. If she isn't shitty, she'd do the same for you.

5. Pick the right friends.

and lastly,

6. Love yourself.

I'm going to explain all these in detail so you'll be sure to understand.

1. It's okay to hold on tight...and to let go: One thing I've learned in my few short years is that you just have to be along for the ride. Don't expect everyone to be with you forever. If you think that, do your brain a favor and let yourself down slowly. Eat some ice cream afterwards, it'll help. Life is literally a rollercoaster, it's your own personal stomach churner, and you have the wristband so you just keep on riding. You never get off. But some people only buy the tickets, and once they run out, they have to get off. Nothing is forever. (Unless your friends buy the wristbands?) This is some spiritual shit that I just spit right there.

2. Don't doubt the things you know: This is so important. I see smart people get shitted on by stupid people everyday. If you and Betty are in an argument because she thinks that's a Cerura scitiscripta but you know damn well that it's an Actias luna because you studied moths in college, then tell her! Don't just agree because you want to fit in. If it'll cause conflict, just agree. But if it's something you feel strongly about, then tell the whole world! Just don't let know it all's walk all over you, it's not nice.

3. Make sure your clothes are clean: I literally cannot stress this enough. MAKE SURE YOUR CLOTHES ARE CLEAN. Now, go write it 100 times. Done? Good. Clothes are very important, a window to the soul almost. They reflect the inside. Do you want people to think your insides smell like B.O. and barbeque sauce? No!

4. If you're the only one at the party that isn't drunk, and your friend is throwing up in the toilet, don't be an asshole. Go hold up her hair, if she isn't shitty, she'd do the same for you: First off, I don't know why you'd be the only one who isn't drunk at a party, but if this happens to you, just do what the title says. Don't be an asshole. You know how much it sucks to vomit up all that alcohol you drank to impress boys. Rub her back, maybe get her some water. If she's a good friend, she'd do the same for you, which leads me to my next point....

5. Pick the right friends: Now, I'm not gonna go all mom on you, I can! But I won't, just know. You really should pick good people to be influenced by. Judge how they treat the waiter, if they treat them like shit, just leave. It's not good. If they're respectful, you know they care about people in this world. We're all humans, don't be a shithead.

and lastly,

6. Love yourself. There is so much to love about you. I cannot fix you, I can just tell you how marvelous you are. Please don't think anything negative about yourself, it really isn't worth it in the long run. Don't let boys be mean to you, wear the clothes you want, travel the world, learn about all the cultures in the world, feel the energy bubbling inside you. Oh, my god. You are so alive. You are doing so well in this big world. You ate the last cookie? So what? All it did was make you smile, which is what you need to do. Never stop smiling. Please, It's so attractive. You are the sun, the moon, the wind, the sea, you have galaxies in your eyes and your hair is like golden sand on beaches in exotic places. You are so alive, you are so present, don't hold on to that negative energy. Be free. Be you.

I hope you study this, and never let it out of your heart for too long.

I love you.

- Kaitlin.