My Awesome Wife [COMPLETED]

Chapter 15 - False Guilt

      
Becky had insecurity regarding her wife, She felt guilty for not remembering her past. And she think Freen might not love her same as before, even Freen consoled her its not her fault and not to think like that.

She got easily jealous, when her wife talk or laugh with someone, who is not their closed friends.

"Who was that?"
Becky asked, when her wife took passanger sit of her car. She came to fetch her wife from University. While ago, she saw Freen talked with some guy in front of the University.

"A colleague" Freen answered
"So you were closed with everyone here"
"No, how could I?"
"You two looked so closed"
"What is this about?"
"Nothing"
"Ok daddy, don't say that you feel jealous of that guy, he is just a colleague, we were talking about upcoming exam"

Becky didn't answered, so Freen continues

"Hey, what is this?? Are you mad, my love"

Becky pouted her lip, she looked so cute, Freen smile and said
"Ohh look at you, my daddy is so cute"
"Don't jokes around"
"Its not a joke, you are so cute and beautiful,  how could my eyes avert from you"

Freen pinch Becky cheek, Becky try to act mad but couldn’t.
"My love, I don't have eyes for other, so leave your unnecessary thought, just think about how I moan under you every night".

Becky gulped, she looked at her wife, bring  her closer and kiss her passionately.

As days goes by, Becky couldn't regain her lost memories. Sometimes, she remember flash memories of her past, but not the full one.  Her wife consoled her that she doesn't need to remembered but deep down she want to remember all her lost memories, she started overthinking, it became worst and to ease it she start drinking.

Becky hate alcohol before but now she is fond of it as it lets go of her uneasiness,  unpleasant thoughts, negative emotions, her false-guilt, prolonged sadness at same time.

Freen always scold her why she feels guilty even she doesn't do anything wrong. Freen said whatever she feel is just a feeling not the fact. Freen scared that her wife may depressed with all these things.

Sometimes Becky came home drunk at night and in morning she apologized to her wife.

Freen know how her wife is drifted towards darkness, she try to talk about it, she  recommend to see a therapist for her mental health and it always leds to their fight.

"What do you think of me??? Ha !!! What the? "
"Oh God, its not like that, you are drifting away from me lately, I need you, I really need you, my love"
"I didn't go anywhere, I am still with you"
"Physically but mentally you are far away from me"
"Don't think the world is spining around you"

Freen heart broke to hear the words
"No daddy, no please calm down, lets talk out, you don't have to be like this, I don't want to see you like this, depends on alcohol, think about our little family, think about Jessi"
"Why you bring Jessi, I love her all my heart, and I love you too, but sometimes I need time to myself, I am an adult"
"Yes you are right, you are right, but ."
"But what???"

Freen come closer to her wife and hold her but Becky try to move away from her and she succeed, Freen fall on ground as she lost her balance.
"Are you ok?? " Becky rush towards her wife
"Umm I am ok"
"I am sorry, I don't intend to hurt you, sorry, I am sorry baby" Becky hold her wife

"Its ok,, I know you don't do intentionally, Its ok"

Freen try to stand up and she had sour ankle. She hold Becky's hand and made her sit on the bed and she sit next to her