Love You Twice

Chapter 1

Yunjin

"What do you mean it would never work?" I ask. Does she not see how hurt I am? Is she as hurt as I am?

She's just standing in front of me, not looking anywhere but at me. Did the past year mean nothing to her?

"It's going to be 6 months Yunjin. Do you know how long that is? How is that fair?" Wonyoung asks, throwing her hands in the air.

"It's not my choice!" I yell. It's not my choice. If it were up to me I'd be staying here. I'd even move out if that's what they wanted.

I'm almost 18 anyway. It would be difficult, but not as difficult as your parents hating you.

Hate.

It's not a word that's used loosely, but in my case it's accurate.

My parents hate me. They used to love me. A year ago they loved me.

"I came out for you cause you couldn't handle me being in the closet!" I yell at her. "Even after I told you how my parents are, but you didn't care did you?" I step closer to Wonyoung, pushing my finger into her chest.

Everything is coming out now. I'm leaving tomorrow anyways, so it doesn't matter. I'm being shipped away to New York.

That seems like all I do. Move I mean. I lived in Seoul until I was 16, then my parents decided they wanted to move back to where they grew up.

Montana. But not the beautiful part of Montana, the shitty, close minded part of Montana. The place where my parents got all their views from. Talk about a culture shock.

I was highly opposed to this, but my parents kept saying it'll be good for me to find me a nice, hard working, country boy. Acting like those even exist.

It doesn't matter if they did anyway, I like girls. I always have, but my parents just didn't know until I told them about wonyoung.

They took it as you would expect. So, for the past year they've been setting up a living arrangement for me. I will go live with my grandma in New York.

I graduated highschool a year early, so they are making me take a gap year and try and 'fix' myself.

They tell me it's for the best. It's in my best interest to go to New York, but the truth is they are sending me off because they don't want to deal with what's 'wrong' with me.

They will hardly even look at me.

"I did! Yunjin don't be so insensitive this hurts me too!" Wonyoung yelled back. I scoff at her. Rolling my eyes in response to the sad comebacks she's mustered up.

If my parents were home they would probably be jumping for joy hearing the break up that's happening right now.

But then again Wonyoung never came over when they were here. They've only seen her through photos, refusing to ever meet her.

I'm sure it hurt her, but it hurt me worse. They were my parents after all. I'm not sure what to even call them now.

"Then why are you doing it? I'm not asking you to break up with me, I'm asking you to stay. Stay with me." I plead as a last hope. I move the finger I had practically buried in her chest, and take her hand in my own.

Maybe she will change her mind. But of course that's all such a far stretch from what actually happened.

"I'm sorry Jen, but I'm not doing this with you anymore. I've given up too much, and I'm not going to give up another 6 months without you even being here."

"I realize 6 months is long, but is that seriously too long? I will give you anything. I will even buy you a plane ticket to come see me if it'll help." I offer anything that pops up in my head. 6 months is long, but I'd wait 6 months for her, so why couldn't she do the same?