Love You Twice

Chapter 16

Chaewon

Jennifer and I spend the next hour talking, giggling, stealing kisses that turn into longer kisses.

I judged Jennifer too soon.

I thought she was a stuck up bitch that only wants things her way, but these past weeks, spending time with her has changed everything.

Especially now.

Talking to her. Touching her. Laughing with her.

It shows me how wrong I was.

Jennifer is funny, intelligent, and caring.

She makes sure I'm comfortable with everything before she does it. No guy I've been with has given a second thought to ask, but Jennifer is so much different.

Right now, looking at Jennifer, I feel content. I feel comfortable.

"Can you calm some of my worries?" Jennifer asks. My eyebrows come together in confusion.

"Cause right now I'm happy and I don't really know what's happening, but I need reassurance before I try and figure it out." Jennifer speaks fast, but I catch every word understanding this is something she needs.

"Of course, what's going on in there?" I ask, touching Jennifer's forehead lightly.

She smiles a little, but gets serious once again.

"I'm not like an experiment am I? I can deal with helping you figure out what you want, but I can't be a girl you mess with for a while then leave because you don't actually like girls."

I don't say anything because she only stops to take a breath and I don't want to interrupt her.

"So please let me know now, because I think I'm actually starting to like you even though I hated you before and oh my god please shut me up." Jennifer rambles, and I laugh at her a little.

Seems like we have mutual feelings about each other, even since the beginning.

A silence falls between us as Jennifer waits for my answer.

"Right now I'm confused if I'm being honest. No matter how many times Zuha told me, I always pushed away the thought of liking girls, but this..."

I grab Jennifer's hand that is resting between us. Her eyes fall to our hands, but they quickly meet mine again.

"Well I don't know what this is, but I know it feels good. I've never felt this feeling with a guy before... or a girl for that matter. You're different Jennifer."

Jennifer smiles at me. It's possibly the biggest smile I've ever seen come from her.

These feelings have hit me fast and hard. Maybe deep down I've always had an attraction towards her and that's why I hated her.

But right now, I can't even think of a reason to hate her.

I've known her for a month, and she's completely flipped my world upside down.

"Okay, I can work with this." Jennifer says, letting out a breath of relief.

I can tell she's worried to be hurt again. Her past relationships haven't treated her the kindest.

I want her to know that I won't hurt her. I don't know what this is, or where this is going to end up, but I know that it won't stop because of my doings.

"I might freak out at some points, but just work with me. Okay?" I ask and she nods.

"I've been through this too, Chaewon. I know how it goes, and I can be patient." That makes me feel a little better.