I was never there

Chapter one

I'm lying on my bed. I try to reach Maya, but she won't answer. I got tickets for the concert we've been wanting for a long time. She will be so happy. I turn on my stomach and put my head in my arms. When is she calling... I decide not to wait any longer and get up. I put on my sneakers and my warm coat that Maya once bought for me. We had been together for 6 months at the time. I walk to Maya's house. She lives a few neighborhoods away, it's only a 10-minute walk. 

I ring the doorbell and her mother opens the door. Masy is always hospitable and cheerful, but her tearful eyes do not say much good. "Come in," she says. I'm confused by her look and when I see her brother and father sitting there, something feels wrong. Masy sits down on the chair in front of me and puts her hands between her legs. I sit down on the couch, while Masy starts to tell me: 'When Maya didn't come home from her daily evening walk yesterday, we were worried. We called the police and they started a search. At 3 o'clock they found Maya unconscious in one of the bushes near the pond. It looks like she's been poisoned. Her chance of survival is very small.' I feel my head spinning. I can no longer get normal sentences out of my mouth and I lean back looking for support. "She's in the hospital, so you can visit her." If you want.' I wanted nothing more than to cry really hard, but I held myself back. "I'd like to visit her." I say with a shaking voice. 'We were just about to go, grab your coat.' 

We were in the car as I texted my mom. I told her the whole story and she was okay with the fact that i was going to visit her. I put my phone in the pocket of my pants and just stared out the window. I never thought our relationship would end like this. Even tho her chance of surviving was really small, i still had hope somewhere. Who would do this to her and why? What did Maya ever did wrong? And what kind of poison made her so sick that its fatal? So many questions and no answers. I didn't know what to do because nobody said or did something. We just sat there, thinking of what's coming. We arrived at the hospital and we got out of the car. That was the moment I realized i was only thinking of myself, my pain and my grief if Maya died. But her parents and brother would be even more sad because they love her even more. Suddenly it felt like my head was going to explode and i was going to faint.  

I kept walking and smelled the scent of hospital. I smelled like band aids. As we walked to the reception her mom asked me: 'Are u okay?' I replied with: 'Yea I'm fine.' 'How can i help you?' A high voice said. We looked up. It's was a 20 year old girl with way too much makeup and chewing gum in her mouth. 'We are looking for Maya Stevens?' Her mom said. The girl aggressively typed something at her computer and said: 'Room 304, stairs up and then at the left.' Masy thanked the girl en quickly walked up the stairs. Me and her father and brother followed. 

As we walked into the room, my breath stopped. She was laying down, clearly in coma.  There were heart monitors everywhere and her heart rate was stable. A friendly looking doctor saw us and started to talk. 'You must be her parents and brother and sister. Am i right?' I felt my face turn red. 'I'm her girlfriend.' I said. 'That's okay, sorry for my fault.' She smiled. 'I know that you got a message saying that she isn't doing great and that her chance at surviving very small is, but for the first time her heart rate is pretty stable and she is doing good.' 

I walked to her bed and sat at the chair next to it. Her hand was next to her body so i grabbed it. I felt the tears in my eyes as i looked at her sleeping body. Her chest was going up en down. All of the sudden there were beeps. The line at the heart monitor was going down. There were doctors storming in and out and i saw her mom on her knees, praying for life. A long high beep filled the room. Everyone was silent. Then her mom started screaming. She just sat there, crying on her knees. I looked at Maya. 

Her chest wasn't going up en down anymore. She died. 

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Damn, a plot twist. Hope u enjoyed it! Doris is writing next.

Love, Famke ❤️