I'm drowning in unaddressed history
The severed tie has given me enough time to rewrite my storyline
Yet the past combs through the months I'm living through
It's slowly coming back to haunt me in every waking moment
The scars have healed but the memories remain
Intact, left untouched in my system
Imbedded deeply in my soul
Reminding me that it exists even after so much time
Like a soldier wounded in battle,
The wounds still fresh on my mind
I've shoved the reminders far back in my conscience
But now it doesn't seem farther than I thought it would be this time
The hidden skeletons in my closet seem to escape somehow
Wanting to see the light of day, wreak havoc within me
Shadowing any semblance of peace I've gained from here
Spilling secrets and fears, selling lies for cheap thrills
But I know the ghosts are only ghosts in me,
No one to see or hear them scream
I'm fighting a silent battle, my wits and body suffering
Yet unease would not control my body when I feel them near
I've grown stronger than I have ever been
Facing my past dreads would not deter my future
I have suffered enough to let my worries from yesterday scare me
Enduring has been my solace and fortitude
My history is a stark contrast from my present,
One I wish would finally let go the past
Hopefully this time around the versions just leer
Peace may embody me as I stand my ground here
- November 2, 2023
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Nodus Tollens
Poetrynodus tollens n. the realization that the plot of your life doesn't make sense to you anymore. (dictionary of obscure sorrows)
