The Theater Girl and the Player

Forever & Always - Part 1

I need to be stopped.  

Marsha is sitting on the floor of my bedroom, plugging a straightening iron into the wall . The song "How To Be a Heartbreaker" by MARINA AND THE DIAMONDS is playing on loop and Lucas is elbow deep in my skirt drawer. He has already picked out a cute top for me to wear on my date. Yes, a date. 

My first one.

I am going on a date with Stephen. THE Stephen. The guy that plays girls, that played my 17 year old friend. And my goal is to leave him heartbroken... How? I have no clue.

Now, why did I agree to THAT? I mean... What's the worst that could happen? Also, I did agree to it in front of all my friends in the truth or dare game we were playing. I wasn't about to disappoint them by backing down from the dare. I chose a dare instead of a truth and this is what was given to me.

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I still remember the mischievous glint in Megan's eyes as she declared this crazy idea during a drunk truth or dare game. I thought Carla would refuse, but she did not. She simply told me some rules to follow when I would be on a date with him, so in other words, some boundaries. Darren was already planning which cheesy pick up line I could say to Stephen. I hesitated, but the pressure, their excitement... Besides, it's not like I was hating this plan: After all, I was undoubtedly intrigued about this teenage boy and this gave me a chance to ease this curiosity. 

And so, I said yes. "Fine, I accept the dare. I will ask out Stephen and I promise to leave him heartbroken", is what I said.

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   "So, the vision here is cute girl that every boy has a crush on?", my little brother asks, still rummaging through my multiple skirts. I have an obsession, but skirts are so cute.

   "That decided to ask out a random popular guy out for fun, exactly!"

It would be a bad thing to do, breaking his heart. I shouldn't have accepted the dare. Doesn't he seem a teeny bit dangerous? 

... Emotionally dangerous, at least. HE is a player, he plays with people's heart and he is not a doctor so that is NOT okay. What if he manipulates me into falling in love with him? Truth is, I don't know what these kind of guys do. 

He is not even that cute... Why do girls like him? 

Probably because he has that melancholic, mysterious, isolated vibe to him. It is the reason I wanted him... Not that I want him. But if I would, that would be the reason. 

Despite this dare-date, I can't forget about Dong Jae! 

I want him to be my first boyfriend. He is a guy that likes me, after all! 

Even though we just started hanging out together a few days ago, I can already feel our bond forming quickly. We are two easy going people, so, it makes sense...

I shriek out loud, recalling what happened between Jae and I, which makes my siblings gawk at me with identical perplexed expressions. 

He almost kissed me and I almost let him kiss me. It would've happened if Carla hadn't started speaking. She was telling everyone Stephen broke up with her... She described it as if her heart had been stomped on by a thousand elephants. While every one of my dorky friends comforted her, I only recall being satisfied by Carla and Stephen's breakup. I guess being confused with your different emotions is a side effect of being drunk? I'm not sure if my alcohol tolerance is really low or if I drank a whole lot more than I should've. I just know that the moment her lips uttered his name, my focus transferred from Jae to Stephen. I'm not proud of it.