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19

han was walking home and he was humming a song to himself silently.

"hm hm hm hm, always you, you, you...pink chroma key background..."

"han!"

han turned around.

"oh, hi seungmin!"

"how have you been?"

"yeah, good, what about you?"

"well, I will have a performance soon, so, kind of nervous. It's going to be the first time I will be singing the songs from the new album."

"I'm sure you will absolutely break the stage.
Uhm, can I come at the concert? I really want to see you sing the new songs."

"oh, of course. I already wanted to ask you and jeongin to come at the concert as my emotional support."

"Agh, I'm so excited to see you sing. I will never get used to the feeling, when you have a performance after a new comeback and I can see you singing the new songs I wrote."

seungmin chuckled.

"I have to go to the grocery store, I have literally nothing to eat. Wanna go with me?"

"Oh, I would love to, but I can't. I have shit to do today."

"Alright then, I will say my goodbye to you."

"Geez why do you make it sound like you're about to die or something?"

seungmin rolled his eyes.

"alright, bye han!"

"byeee!"

han waved at seungmin and went inside his apartment.

"now I have to find what shit i have to do."
han sighed.

of course he had nothing to do, he just didn't feel like socializing today.

"I can clean up a little, it's kind of messy here."

han played some vibe songs and started cleaning his house.
to be honest, he actually enjoyed it.

"cuz baby toniiight...the DJ got us falling in love agaaaaain~"

he actually enjoyed these moments.

•~•

minho walked to hans house.

why?
good question.

remember how few days ago ( *cough* *cough* chapter 11 *cough*  ) Minho decided to try and make things right with jisung?
yeah, he was about go and try make it right with him today.

he sighed before he knocked on the door.
jisung opened it.

"minho? what are you doing here?"

"can we....talk?"

"uhm, yeah of course."
Han stepped aside a little so that Minho could go inside.

"what've you been up to?"

"oh, I'm just cleaning a little, what do you want to talk about?"

minho sighed.
"Well.....I want to talk about what happened three years ago."

han tensed up.
"w-what do you want to talk about?"

"I know that this conversation will be uncomfortable for you, but I think that we need to talk it out, before we become something like friends again, or there will always be some unspoken words and it will only make things worse. It could even hurt us in the future."

minho sighed before continuing.
"I'm sorry jisung, I really am."

jisung looked at him.
"w-why are you sorry?"

"god jisung, I feel so bad about what I did. I should've ended it differently, or not end it at all."

"there was....one question that I kept asking myself. Can you answer it for me? honestly?"
han asked

"of course."

"why did you stay by my side, if I was only a distraction for you?"

minho sighed.
"you know, the worst thing I did was call you a distraction. you took it differently then I originally meant it, and...please tell me that it didn't haunt you for the last three years."

han stayed silent.

minho sighed.
"god I'm so sorry. I never thought you were a distraction. I just thought that....I wouldn't have time for you during my training period, and that if we stayed together, I would always miss you and I wouldn't be able to focus on my training. I thought that I wouldn't be able to give you my attention, and that you will get sick of it and leave me. It was a stupid thing I put in my mind, but you have to know, that I never thought about you as a distraction.
I...I loved you jisung....so much.
but I had to let you go."

han had tears in his eyes.
"minho.....I loved you too, more then you would ever know. You did something really bad.....but I can't blame you. To be honest, I don't think I ever blamed you. I only blamed myself. I thought that...I was not good enough, and that you cared more about becoming an idol more then you cared about our relationship. and even if you did.....I couldn't blame you. I wouldn't have the right to blame you. I just....my mind isn't working the same way other minds are, minho. I thought that....I was the reason for your unhappiness. It broke me Minho."

minho pulled jisung into his embrace.

"god jisung, if I only could, I would go back in time and make a different choice. I would do things differently. Im sorry I couldn't keep you safe from your thoughts. Im so sorry."

they just sat there, embracing each other for a while.

"god, why am I getting a feeling of dejavú?" Han asked

"yeah...."

they pulled away from the hug, but stayed in each others arms.
their eyes met.

Minho got lost in jisungs eyes, as if his eyes were hypnotizing him.

"jisung?"

jisung hummed.

"can I....kiss you?"