Meteor

Twenty Three

He kept scrambling through the pages, hoping that her journal would reveal what she thought about him.

"DD/MM/20XX,

Today, I met a boy at the Galileo Conference, Han Yu Jin. His presentation about the possibility of lifeforms on other planets was damn good. I even thought that he was studying astrobiology in uni. But no, he was the same age as me, applying for med school. I was so amazed. Working in the MR team was interesting, yet I really hope that one day, I'll be standing there like him."

So that was her impression about him. Yu Jin could never believe that there would be anybody who thought highly of him like her.

"24/12/20XX,

Today was my first Christmas hanging out with Yu Jin. I feel so good that I could show him how wonderful offals taste before I die."

This must be referring to the time when they had BBQ together on their first Christmas.

"DD/MM/20XY,

I got mad at Yu Jin today when he found my tablets. I knew it wasn't right of me to overreact like that, but I was really angry then. I've been trying to keep my cancer a secret, and now one of my friends might know it. He is a med school applicant, so he might know that kind of drug was for cancer treatment. But after all, let's hope that he doesn't. "

This was the first time Yu Jin saw Eun Chae being furious at him, and also when he found out about her illness. Tears began to cloud his eyes as he went on reading.

"DD/MM/20XY,

This morning, I found myself sleeping in Yu Jin's arms. I even kissed him last night. It was extremely embarrassing and I really don't wanna talk about it. He told me that I had been drunk last night. I hope I didn't say anything stupid. In addition, this might sound weird, but I think I have some feelings for Yu Jin."

So she also liked him. She really did. Yu Jin really wished that he had chosen to confess his feelings to her that night.

"DD/MM/20XY,

I was so emotional that I cried like a baby in front of Yu Jin today. I hurt him yesterday although he was trying his best to take care of me. I was the one who needed to say sorry. But he apologised to me first and even bought me an expensive book. I wondered why he was so nice to me. If I was him, I would never be able to be that nice to a girl who badly hurt me with such awful words."

This must be the time when Yu Jin and Eun Chae reconciled after a big argument at the hospital when she refused to eat the sandwiches that he brought her.

"DD/MM/20XY,

Tomorrow is Chuseok. I'm so excited cuz I'm dining out with Yu Jin. I said that I loved Western food just for fun, but he really reserved a table at a very good Western restaurant. He was so nice. By the way, I guess I'm gonna confess my feelings to him tomorrow at the dinner. I really want to let him know how much I like him, which I've been keeping to myself for too long. I don't expect him to agree to be my boyfriend, I just want him to know that. Even if he turns me down, it's totally fine."

This was where her journal cut short.

Some tears fell onto the pages as Yu Jin collapsed and sobbed like a child. It was because of his cowardice that he could never be her true boyfriend. He was so afraid that he could not confess his love to her, without even knowing that she also felt the same. He should have told her, even though it sounded a little risky, even though it was only to make him feel better. "Nooooo!" His voice cracked as he shouted out loud.