Skam Shorts

11 - elu

TW: bad eating habits (idk if it would be considered an ed), sensory issues, fainting, anxiety/panic attacks

This wasn't the first time Lucas had cut back on his eating. Wether it'd be intentional or something he'd just have to live through, it never really got to this point.

Sometimes when his father was away on 'business trips' and his mom would have bad episodes that would keep her in bed for weeks, little eight year old Lucas would stuff himself full of cereal and chips.

Or he'd try to

The cereal was to high up for him to reach, he'd have to get a chair then climb the counter, then get the milk and make a mess just to clean it up and put everything back.

Lucas wasn't a huge fan of messes, Especially cleaning them at such a young age. So he eventually picked up the habit of turning the volume up louder on the tv and ignore the rumbling and aching feeling in his stomach, until his mom was able to drag herself out of bed or his father walked through the door.

As he grew older the feeling grew duller. It was never gone, but it was more familiar which made it easier for him to tune out.

He'd remember his dad being angry after arguing with his mom. Whenever Lucas would get in his way, he'd grab him by the arm and drag him to the closet and leave him locked in there for the next couple hours.

There was one time where they complete forgot about him and he was trapped in the dark for almost a full day.

He'd sob and bang on the door and scream for help, but they never came.

He suppose that's where he got his fear of the dark.

Going to school with Yann and letting Arthur and Basile into their little group, his eating habits did get better considering they were all fat asses and wanted to eat anything in their barely- mile radius.

Lucas noticed how he filled out a bit more, thighs getting thicker, stomach slightly softening up. He was getting to a healthier weight and he absolutely hated it.

He's always been a little bit underweight, and he was fine with that really, couldn't help but love and take pride in it actually.

But Eliott loved the slight weight change

He was happy seeing his baby reaching something much healthier. Don't get him wrong, Lucas wasn't majorly underweight, it was only a couple pounds or so. Yet he couldn't help but worry when he first realized.

He didn't want to mention it to Lucas in fear that it'd make him insecure or start an argument, he simply gave him a bit more food then he usually would and couldn't help but smile when Lucas ate all of it, if not, most.

But Eliott has been busy with the urbex parties lately, and they've been arguing more frequently.

Eliott think Lucas doesn't know, thinks he's doing overtime at his job.

But god Lucas wasn't fucking dumb

He knows Eliott wants a bit more space (which admittedly hurts a bit) ever since they moved in together, and he doesn't want the younger to worry about him. But Lucas thinks it's worse that he comes home smelling like a party, (which- how is that even possible?) kisses him, then lies straight to his face with a dopey smile.

Lucas started to get angrier and angrier at this. Out of sheer pettiness, he'd stop waiting up for Eliott to come home (he'd still be up but would fake sleep to make Eliott feel bad) and would leave some food wrapped up for him in the fridge to really sell it.

Often times he would make a portion size just enough for Eliott and would munch on a small snack to keep his stomach from rumbling.

He hasn't been all that hungry lately, his appetite starting to flicker out. Lucas knew that this was the early signs of him going into those days, weeks or sometimes even months where'd he just shut down and he'd feel sick to his stomach whenever he would take a bite of something.