Green Innocence

16: Divine Connection: Part 1

    

     A racing heart pumped deep against the breast of our favorite girl.

    She could barely breathe right now she was so excited, in fact it almost made it impossible for her to get herself ready for their date; she couldn't wait to start. But...she also kinda didn't want it to begin out of her own internal anxiety. 

    As of currently, Ibara was vigorously brushing her teeth, ironing her hair take that as you will, and even going so far out to put a soft amount of makeup on her face. Whether it was her worry that she wasn't going to look presentable enough for the boy she loved, or if she just wanted to look the way one might expect for such an important event, or both, she couldn't stop shaking to actually get anything done. You know...

     It felt strange for her, the fact that she was getting so worked up about it...going on a date with the boy she loved. Sure, she knew well and true that no matter how she looked when she walked back downstairs to greet him he'd say she's beautiful...but a string feeling inside of her heart just didn't want to look even the tiniest bit impure.

     Breathing heavily as she starred in the mirror to asses her work, she made a mental note of whether or not some areas were too little or too much. Not too much eye-shadow, good. A fair amount of lip gloss to prevent dry lips. And not an unholy amount of blush, perfect. Wait, did she make sure to put on perfume? No, no, she mustn't over do it.

     For a moment, she had some clarity. Oh my goodness, she was actually going on a date with the boy she loved. What made those butterflies inside of her stomach frollic even more was the notion that she herself asked him on it, and she said yes! 

      Such a fact made her veins pump such joy across her person she damn well begun to jump and dance, twirl and hop with a deep squeal inside of her chest she was so happy. And unlike earlier that day, she didn't stop to lecture herself about how childish she looked because gosh dangit she deserved to act like a schoolgirl for once, especially over something as perfect as this.

     Soon after...she remembered all of the times that she now realized were perhaps moments of her falling for him; by goodness did she fall hard too. Their intimate moments at the hospital and while fighting Stain, when she fell asleep atop his shoulder on the train ride to school, her non-stop thoughts of him, all the way till today when they shared a room, but not a bed, and cuddled for what felt like forever.

     She swore by the holy name, Ibara loved that boy so darn much.

    A hand was placed over her chest as she stared forward with a determined smile, today was the day...it had to be...right? She was certain that his answer was yes, yes he did lover her...

      But...

     No matter how much she shook her head about it, the looming idea that he might not get to say his answer, nor actually say yes, and instead no, shrouded her mind. It slowly soured that confident smile on her face to a slight frown and a sigh. Even now, she still shivered in a mixture of fear and ecstasy, unable to truly pinpoint what to think.

    He did, after all, confide unto her a deep truth that he held, and showed in such wholesome moments passion that she could very well then feel through his embraces. But, from how close they were...what if they got...too close?

     The idea formed inside of her head that, perhaps, the shy boy did not see her in the view that included her romantically...and simply loved her platonically. What if, for a moment she questioned, he simply wanted to stay friends? She felt as though the angels were painting it right in front of her. They attend to his home, or the church, or wherever they mean to go, and he simply answers with a no.