Surface. - Poetry Novel

factory reset.

"I love you"
Taken aback
My airflow is cut
And the world around us dissapears

It's funny how when that moment finally happened
I lost all function
Got set to restart
And there were no butterflies
Or skip in my heart

"I love you"
I'd said it a few times
To try to test it on my tongue
"Well I think I do"
I'd say after
Not convinced that I did too

And it's funny how
I'd go crazy , and hang on to every word you said
Then come home and go crazy as I replayed it in my head

But when it came down to it
And you asked if I'd be yours
Factory mode
Reset
And a rejection of sorts

It feels like a distant memory
As if I was trying to convince myself that it was real
But I guess the point is
If it were truly love
I wouldn't have said "I think I do"
Or "I don't feel the way you feel"
Or try to 'convince' myself of anything.
I would just know , I would just feel
I wouldn't be afraid to let go, I wouldn't regret how I feel.

Written November 2023