Werewolf In Smallville

17: nighttime bonding

Clark Kent, I went into mine and Lois's room. I lent back against the wall, letting out a shaky breath. "You okay?" Lois asked,  she walked over to me. "I have Eli back" I breathed, he's here. He's real. He's him. "I have my pup back" I repeated, I took a proper look at Lois, she had a smile on her face. "I have him back" I smiled, I hugged Lois. I have my son back! "Still just actually hitting you, huh?" Asked Lois, we sat on our bed. "Ya. I keep on expecting this all to be in my head" I admitted, I've thought all my life that Derek hale's life didn't exist, that I was crazy. "It won't Clark, Eli's here, with us" Asurred Lois, felt her arm around me. "Us" I breathed, the five of us, all together, it's literally a dream come true. "Ya, us Clark" said Lois, I kissed her. I'm so glad to be back home, especially now with Eli here. "you need to have a shower, we then can talk later" she ordered, I chuckled, kissed her and went to shower.

I quickly sped into a pair of boxers and a gray T-shirt. "It's great being back" I breathed, I entered back into our room, running my hand through my damp hair. "I still can't believe Eli's here" I repeated, I have my wolf pup back. Ya it still hasn't hit me yet. "He is a great kid Clark, you raised him well" Asurred Lois, I've needed that assurance with the three of them. Three. "It still hasn't hit me he's real" I sighed, I sat on the edge of the bed. Head in hand. "I think the same will be said for Eli" she admitted, I nodded, if I'm having this reaction, he will too. "Ya, this must be so hard for him, all of this" I sighed, me dying, shifting, getting use to having a pack, living with Scott, still confused about that, and not to mention all of this. "I bet it was, but he has you now, and from what I can tell, that's all he's been wanting for eleven months" said Lois, I don't doubt that, that's all I've wanted to. "Lois, tell me everything you know about Eli, since he's been here, he seems different, I want to know what's changed" I asked, of course he would be different, he lost me and his whole life changed, twice, But I Just want to know how much did. "Well, Eli's kind of a nervous reck" said Lois, I could tell that. "With in his first week he literally tidied up the whole farm, because he was bored" said Lois, he did what? "That's why the chore list was gone" I mumbled, Eli would clean up some of the house, but on this scale? No way! And definitely not a farm. "And... he was stealing from me" said Lois, my eyes went wide. "he did what? I thought the reason he stole that Jeep was because it was In my auto shop" I said, and because he liked it, but that was implied... sort of. "He was stealing it incase he needed to leave. A backup plan" added Lois, it clicked. I smiled. "He's was doing what I taught him" I realised, I had the habit of... over planing escape routes. "And probably incase he couldn't live with Clark Kent" added Lois, I think I already figured out his escape plan. "Of course" I said, he'd probably would of stolen one of the cars. "Is he still stealing from you? how long have you known?" I Questioned, I may of taught Eli too well. "No, I've been giving him an allowance since I found out, he hasn't stolen since and it was just after his first week here" answered Lois, I did teach him to well. "Lois did I mess up with Eli? Did I give him more baggage than needed?" I asked, it sounds like I might of. She grabbed my hands. "Clark you told me about that world, Beacon hills, you didn't. He needed to know everything you taught him to live there" assured Lois, I kissed her and smiled. "I needed to hear that, I've always wondered if I messed up with him" I said, Even though I never thought he or any of that was real. "I convinced myself that I was crazy but.. I love that he's alive, and seeing that I didn't screw him up" I said, I was so shocked when I saw that Jersey, and him of course. "Clark, we need to talk" said Lois, she let go of my hands "what? What did I mess up with Eli?" I asked, is it the fact I was a werewolf at all- "shhh, clam down, not about your parenting" she Asurred, I took a couple deep breaths, calming down. "It's about the people you were friends with them.. the pack" told Lois, oh, I guess Eli told her about them. "What about?" I asked, why would we need to talk about them? "They didn't exactly... treat Eli right" told Lois, I shooked my head slightly. "that doesn't sound like them" I said, Scott wouldn't let anything happen to Eli.. but in the dreams... "Clark, Just listen to me" said Lois, she held my head with a hand. "Eli's been called a lot of bad things, but we know for sure a hassle, and probably a brat, unbearable, unless, annoying" said Lois, I took and held her hand. "No, no, how- how do you know?" I asked, they wouldn't call him things like that. She held my face as I held her hand. "because he's called himself all of those thing, and more in the past two months" said Lois, I turned away. "No, No he wouldn't talk about himself like that..." I said, he isn't like me. He's better than me. "He- he's not me" I said, Eli loves himself! I- I made sure of it! "Clark calm down" said Lois, she could tell I was getting panicked. "I- I was sure I taught him how to love himself" I said, even If I didn't know how to love myself, I thought- "Clark this isn't your fault" told Lois, I put my arms around my knees and looked at her. "Then why does he think of himself like that?" I asked, I could feel and hear tears. "Because for nine months he was told he was nothing good, treated like he doesn't deserve anything, the nine months after you died" answered Lois, if I know one thing, it's that Eli wouldn't of told her this. "How do you know?" I Asked, there's no way Scott would let someone talk to Eli like that. "because I once asked if his dad told him this" Told Lois, I don't know how this helps. "he blew up at me" Continued Lois, he did? He didn't like having outbursts. "saying his dad never said 'shirt' like that, he was defending you, then he trailed off, saying that it was the people he was intrust... and then stop. It was the pack, not you" ended Lois, she turned her head to me. "He also told us that it was multiple people, he accidently named Scott, and a few others, but out of the names? I could tell Scott's hurt the most" she explained, S-Scott wouldn't.. "it wasn't your fault" she added, I took deep breaths. "I didn't mess up, I didn't make him feel like that" I mumbled, but I still failed. "Hay, don't continue to think bad about yourself" said Lois, I smiled, she can always tell. "Think of it like this, you started feeling bad about yourself after paige, he started feeling bad after hearing the pack talking shit about him" explained Lois, that does make sense, the Hales took the fact I was a killer hard, distancing themselves from me, that made how I felt about myself worse. "Thanks, that helped" I thanked, I wipped my eyes, mostly dry. "I knew it would" she smiled, she knows how to get me out of the Derek hale head. "Anything Else?" I asked, I know there will be. She nodded. "He doesn't Just suffer with insomnia and sleepwalking, but nightmares too" she told, that makes sense. "Ya, I had nightmares after the fire" I said, Lois shooked her head. "No, he would wake up, screaming and crying, calling out for you most times" elaborated Lois, not nightmares. "Night terrors" I corrected, I didn't have night terrors. "Ya, your death effected him a lot" said Lois, I knew it would, but... I had to do it. "I didn't think it would be this bad, I never thought the pack would make him feel like a burden!" I said, if anything I thought they would fix the mistakes I made. "Tell me as much as you know" I said, I need to talk about this with him, tomorrow... or as soon as I can get the words out.