Diary of an OFW in Macau

Day 38 at work - menstrual cycle day trese + day off

November 11, 2023

3:50pm - I finally got back at anty's boarding. Phew. I had to take a bus when I came back cause I'm tired of walking and I'm low bat. I'm afraid I would be lost if I don't have my phone's Google map as guide. Hehe. I did came here in the morning. I got up late this morning. About 10 or more minutes before 7am then I did a bit of the chores. I also changed my linens. It's stained ok. I don't want to let them see that nasty stain on my pillowcase and bed sheet. As I took off the bed sheets I find that the blood went through the beddings. Shit. But not all. Just a little but it's obviously blood stain. Haha. Still I flip the cushion over. I just remember now that I can put a duvet on the bed to filter the blood. Hehe. But I will put another layer of sheet or I will sleep on the floor again. Last night I didn't climb the bed. I did but I felt uncomfortable so I stayed at the floor until morning. I also turn the AC off but it seems automatic so it will turn on when it wants. I'm not sure. Maybe it feels the heat or humidity and starts. Hmm. Anyway, my feet isn't swollen when I woke up but I feel uncomfortable. I want to take a bath but I can't do so. It might be an inconvenience to the employers. So instead I wipe myself with wet towel and wet wipes. My bottom only. Hehe. Still that didn't remove the smell. When I was walking and mind you I'm all sweaty, I can smell that odor I produce. It's not the menstrual sweat. It's the sweat in between my breast. I put talc but it still smells. Although I like the smell but maybe not for others. Anyway, it's a fun but exhausting day. I manage to find the BDO where we went or where anty took me. I remit 3000MOP on my Maybank account and I'm still waiting for it to arrive.

5:43pm - urgh. My stomach cramp came. Oops. It may be a menstrual cramp or both. Aigoo. It hurts. I already done the poo and pee but it still hurts. So I took a pain reliever. Wow. It's not hurting anymore. That's great. So great. I should go buy a few more of this pain reliever. It took effect immediately. Although I still have a stash of pain reliever on me. Maybe a should finish those first. Ah. Maybe my feet doesn't feel swollen this morning cause of the anti rheumatoid mefenamic acid I took by mistake?! Hmm. Should I try it again tonight. Maybe I should. Yup. I will. When I can't persist on the pain then it's time for the meds. But urgh. My kidney. My poor kidneys will be assaulted for the meds. Aiya, I'm tired. I'm exhausted. I'm poor again. Aigoo. This feeling is too damn. And it's my menstrual cycle. Shit. I feel awful. I also regret eating ice cream and paying too much for it. Oh dear. Ah. The pain is coming back. Crap. What should I do with this pain? It's unwelcome and so dead weight. Aigoo. Can I go back to my employers house early and lock myself in my room to wiggle and silently cry. Argh. I just realize this isn't my 3rd day and it's usually the last day. I didn't get the pain on the 1st or 2nd so is it coming all together on this last day. Aiya. The pain. Pain pain go away. Never come back again for any other day. Ah. Pain pain fly away. Please fly away. Ah. My miserable day. My day off where I should be resting is now being spend trying to contain the pain. Aigoo. Aigoo. Why? Why? Oh why? Is the med not working? Why isn't it working? Why do I still feel the pain? Ahhhh. Ahhhh. Ahhhh. Crap. This is hell. Urgh this is shy I never liked having menstrual cycle. It's pure utter shit. Ever since I never got a visit that doesn't torture me. Well, when I was lunging without work it's fine cause I can curl up in bed and do all sorts of poses for my comfort. But this time I don't have that luxury. I don't even have my own bed to lie during day off. Aiya, should I message ate mayjoy and ask for a room on her boarding. Ah. I also want to take a bath. A shower will do. I will so icky and bitchy. This menstrual cycle is messing with my hormones. I'm being totally up and down. Oh my gawd. I don't like this feeling. I should have gone to that confession. But I didn't have anything to say a while ago. I can't think of anything so I came out. Actually I thought that was mass schedule. Turns out it's confession schedule. How embarrassing. Ah. The horror. And shit do happen in bundles. The headphone hasn't arrived yet. I do need that right now. Music alleviate the pain for me. But I can't possibly put a loud music on my phone. Others don't like my choice and would treat it as noise. So I need that headphone. Or is it an earphone. Oh la la. Oh la la. The pain is residing. Please pain go away. I put my bag on my stomach as cushion and press on it. Hehe. On the last 2 days, I did so with the pillow. No wonder I didn't have any pain. Cause I was on a pain relieving position. I did the cat pose, cow pose and fish pose. Those positions are indeed helpful.

9:35pm - I got at my employers house at past 8:35 and went to take a bath at 8:50s. I got out at 9:18 and close my door. I didn't want to close my door and would like to clean a bit but the family has an occasion. There is a came at the table so they should eat dessert. Turns out it's a birthday. I think it's the eldest. Im not sure. At least it's not the youngest. A kids birthday party is definitely grand especially if it's the son. So it's either the eldest or the second. My guess leans to the eldest cause the female employer mention her name yesterday. Although not the birthday. Aiya, my stomach hurts like hell again. Damn it. I'm in frog position which often works. Ah, why did I forget about the pressure points for stomach ache. Aigoo. Me and my big head without brains. Tsk. Is this why they say those with big breasts has no brains. Hehe. I do have a brain. But it's great only when it comes to academic issues. Aiya, I should have learned to live before studying too much. How sad. I'm sad. And regretful. Ah. Damn. I feel hot and cold. I don't know if I want it cold or hot. I'm pissed. And I'm in pain. So much pain. Ahhhhh. I want to shut out loud. Damn. Damn. Damn. Right I forgot again. I did the water but I didn't boil for the thermos. I just took a bath and I want to put on lotion. Also I can feel that the family are up to something. Ah. Damn. I don't like this. I feel so pissed. No. I feel annoyed with the pain. Heck. It's very uncomfortable. I am finished with my cycle. I don't have a lot of blood anymore. So this isn't - no. It's still the cycle. Hormones don't go back to normal easily. This should take a while. Oh dear. Even not water can't ease the pain. Ah. Right. It's not menstrual cramp anymore. Am I poisoned from eating raw fish. But I didn't eat them. Only the solidified ones. Like the ones on California maki. Tsk. I shouldn't have bought that sushi. I don't like the smell. Its fishy and so different from the ones I tried before.

I think I overspend too much. I only have less than a thousand. And I still need to open a bank account. My next salary would be next month. Oh dear. If I put the 500 on the bank then I would be left with only about 600. That's 3 day offs. Ah. It's doable. I was able to go on less than 200 for a day last last time. I should be able to do with that much. Ok. It's decided. On my next day off I will open a bank account. I only hope 500 is the initial deposit. If not then I can only wait for my next salary. My. My. Pa my