Diary of an OFW in Macau

Day off finally

Oct 21, 2023

6:32am - I plan on not waking up early but it seems my body clock is adjusted to wake at this hour. Anyway, yesterday wasn't good. I did sleep soundly though.

10:23am - I'm at anty langsa's boarding. Emmeee, I got lost and walked in circle but always end up finding myself in the red market. Hehe. I follow the food. Oh but I did have fun. You see I rely on Google maps for the way. At first I looked for tap seak but end up in the market. Then I followed the maps again ending at the place where we had my pre medical. I turn around there until my feet hurts and I remember to buy shoes. So I stop following the map and rely on familiarity. I end up at the market. Hehe. It's fun. But aching feet. I gotta go buy shoes rely. Of at least Crocs. The shoe shop I saw yesterday isn't still open. I did find food to my liking. But the taste isn't strongly flavored. I thought it's 70 but turn out it's less than 10. Aiya, was it my language or am I not loud enough. I should regulate my voice. Make it louder. <Sigh> I'm used to low voice when I speak in other language other than the colloquial dialect.

Oh right I met another Filipina when I wnt to throw the garbage. I lied. I somehow didn't feel telling I'm on 13th floor. I don't know why I suddenly said 14. Why am I such a liar? It's uncomfortable. I spoke a bit. She advise me to woe the child. Hello I'm here to clean not to care for the kid. She emphasize on woeing which I didn't understand why. By the time I'm in bed did I thought why didn't I ask how? Hehe. That's quite chaotic. And thrilling. 😆

3:55pm - Im done going to immigration. Tsk. This is why I want to go alone. I want to sleep on the bus. I want to sleep. I need sleep. Aigoo, what I would kill to sleep. I try to take nap after work but anty scold me. She won't let me have my sleep. Aiya, I want to sleep. I'm dying to get some sleep. Now I'm sleepy and nodding off. But I'm in anty elma's place so I cant take a nap. Oh why. I still have until 9pm. I can sleep for that long. Huhu. 😭😭😭 Where can I go to sleep? I could stay in my employer's place but I'm sure anty won't allow me to sleep my day off if I'm there. For Christ sake, I want to rest. Like totally rest ok.

Oh yeah, my abdomen acted up again. Oh why? Why? Why?!!! Haha. I want to go out and sight see. But I'm afraid it might suddenly rain. But I want to go out and roam around. Hehe. Or else let me sleep. After acting up it's gone. I really want to smack my abdomen. It's a pain. Even yesterday. It suddenly acted up. I don't know why it did. How awful. But it's worth it. I'm able to know a lot from anty elma. Turns out anty langsa is open but you need to ask. This is troublesome. I'm not the type to ask for what I lack. I often get scolded for doing it on my own. But I need to ask. As the bible says, knock and the door shall open. Ask and it shall be given to you. Aiya, I'm not sure of the proper words but that's the gist. It's true and real. But asking is hard. For me at least. I'm used to receiving what's given and being content with it. Never ask. Never question. That's what I was raised up to. But it's not how life works. I should stop being in the safe zone and reach out first. <Sigh> this is hard.

9:23pm - I'm back before 9pm. I thought I could pass by red market to get the slipper but turns out I came to the building at 8:40. I still want to the store so I arrive just right before my curfew. Phew. I wasn't able to open the door at the gate of the building. I tried to doorbell but the guard isn't there. Hehe. I called anty. Thanks goodness she answered. 😋 turns out the glass door, you need to pull fast when you swipe the card. That's why it turn red. <Slight knock on head. Toinks> then I got to the elevator and 13th floor. At the door, I wasn't able to open so I rang the doorbell. There's a mishap on the door. I turn it and it got locked. When they open the door it didn't open cause I locked it. We don't have a rapport. 😆 So it took some time before I got in. Then the female employer came outside to let me try. Haha. Turns out I keep turning it the wrong way. Also once I turn it the correct way I pull while the ket is in and don't let go. Hahaha. How ignorant of me la. 🤣 I can only smirk hoping it will pass. Hehe. Thank you for not minding my foolishness. I then went to my room. There isn't anything amiss. I consider taking a bath but my hair would be wet so let's take a bath tomorrow. Besides I didn't take long walks. I spent time on anty Elma's boarding so no sweat either. I wanted to go out and explore but can't since I don't have anyone with me. The others won't allow me either in case I get lost. I can only convene. Oh, the custard mooncake is yummy. Alas, I think I overspend. On food. Hehe. I also manage to buy sandal. It's my style and it fits but as I compute I found out it's more than the cost I usually buy when I'm at ph. Well, as winsy did say, I can't always convert. I have to buy as is. 🤦 it's heartbreaking on the wallet. Financial issues is hard to think of.

10:24pm - I finished organizing my loots and I also made a balance sheet to monitor my income and expenditure. I thought I overspend but it's in the acceptable range. Ah, but I have to top up my mpay. Instead of bus card I can use the mpay app. It's like a gcash. Also I got to learn that someone is using gcash as sideline. Wow. But I would still like to use my family for the top up in my gcash. Hehe. I learn a lot with my chat to anty elma. That sort of conversation I can't have with anty langsa. For some reason there is like a barrier between us. But I got to know that anty langsa is more like me. Sort of. So I guess we do get along on our terms. Hehe. Mostly my stomach problem seem to have to do with the country. It's not used to the food. I have a bold guess it's due to how they cook here. I have another guess which has to do with pesticides. The food here are being sprayed with certain chemicals to keep them fresh. It might have something to do with my frequent stomach pains. But I'm not sure. I can only do elimination and substitution to see results.