Diary of an OFW in Macau

Mos 10th : Depression rising

August 21, 2024

6:41pm - I seriously am getting bored with my current situation. Gosh, I was quite eager at first but that didn't seem to last for a year. Mostly cause I feel suffocated. I didn't feel it at first but it's coming down to me now.

7:05pm - I am done eating. The father was taking a bath when I served the food. Tsk. Aunt shouldnt have told me to bring out the food if the employers aren't ready. Aunt is getting more and more domineering. Especially what I do when I have free time. Hello. I don't have work so I should do what I want. Besides what else can I do aside from playing my phone. I can't meditate or sleep cause she would scold me. Tsk. This is why I don't want to work with relatives. They feel like they own you. I know it's for my own good but seriously, can she just leave me alone. My wrist is still aching. I got a spraine back during Chinese new year which is February and up til now my wrist hasn't healed. It hurts when I do certain task and it gets swolen every morning I wake up. I tried applying cold and hot compress to no avail. I would occasionally use efficacient oil and mostly I just take meds to ignore the pain. Yet she keep ponding me to cross stitch. Damn. I want to argue and curse out but what can I do. I was raised to be oppressed by elders. Well, I can only console myself that this is until 2 years. Next year I will not be with her. I just have to endure. I'm great with endurance. I am not patient but I can endure.