Diary of an OFW in Macau

Day 25 at work - Last Sunday of the month

October 29, 2023

1:54pm - I'm nearly a month from working here. I'm already 2 days at a month from arriving here in Macau. But it's still not good. I'm still not coping. Well, glad by stomach coped. I no longer have those pain attack. It's not stress. It's the food. It's confirmed. Cause when I limit my intake of the food here and instead eat substitute then my stomach felt better. Although there are still growling but not from hunger. It's acid. The great update is that the kid is no longer than much distant to me. He still avoid me but he would talk to me too. I still can't talk to him in close quarters but this is an improvement. In regards to the chores. I get sidetracked at times so I would go back and forth to check if I did it or not. Anty always scold me for that. Hehe. 😋 I managed to budget the time and cook for the kid's meal but he want to try the macaroni. Good for him. Eating the same thing daily for lunch and dinner is quite boring. Especially since the food intake is controlled and spice to minimum. Ah, my issue is that there is no Avon brand here. My bra are failure. It's only Avon which can give me comfort. Random bra with cup size C don't match with mine. It's too small despite being cup C. And if I buy large cup then my problem would be the strap. It's too loose. Aiya, how troublesome. Ah, my back hurts. The teens room is closed so I didn't go there. I also didn't put their folded clothes and the ironed white uniform. I will put them tomorrow then.

Ah, the eldest daughter is here and they vibe well with the mother. They often chat with each other. What a great pair they make. As if they are colleagues and not mom and daughter. It's harmonous. Even the 2nd daughter talks a lot during their dinner. But the 2nd daughter always or mostly stay inside her room. The eldest daughter comes out and hangs in the sala or dining table. That's better than avoiding people. Especially cause the eldest daughter mind her own business and doesn't care for me. Hehe.

It's not a sunny day. It's cloudy. And the air is cold. I should use a jacket. Maybe the winter is close by. Usually accordingly to the ones here, winter should have started on September but until now it's still hot. I guess this cold starts the winter creaping in.

Urgh. No matter what I do my face is still oily. I wipe my face with towel now. But it still becomes oily after I'm done in my work. Aish, this morning I didn't know if the male employer didn't get up early or he did. Cause I'm in my room until lunch. There is no sound and I didn't hear his voice at the dining table so I assumed he is still in their bedroom. So I didn't go clean. But this lunch when I'm preparing my portion after deboning the kid's fish, he came out from the computer room. I got shocked. Did that mean I wasted time waiting for him when he is already awake. <Sigh> anyway, after eating I went to clean the room. I finished after 30minutes. The cr is closed so I didn't open it.

2:11pm - I'm sleepy. 😴😴 and the cross stitching required quite the attention. It doesn't help that the music the employers aides in my sleepy state. Gosh my eyes are closing. I need to so something but cross stitching won't wake me up. Oh hell, can I take a nap!?

6:36pm - I am done eating. The adult employers seem to eat outside? I'm not sure. But the kid ask for his food. This is a first. He approach me for things he can't find or do. If only I could pounch on him I would but I'm restraining myself. I keep telling myself this is not home. That is not your relative. That's the employer's kid. So I can only smile. OMG. The restraint I had to put myself. But I enjoy it when he comes to show me something. I also enjoy caressing his head. 🤘☺️ It's only a matter of time before I can hug him as I like. Haha. Hopefully by then he still has to grow up. He is 9 already and his mom want to make him independent of some sort. Cause the previous maid I substitute to baby the kid to the point of feeding him his food. I did ask the kid but he said no and he would eat his own. But I never tried to feed him. A while ago I stuck his fork on the bowl of sausage since he is laying down. I can't take the food and fed him. I'm also eating. Good thing he eat but halfway left and until now has yet to finish his food. But at least he ate at most 3 sausages. Hopefully he eat his rationed food. I put only a minimum vegetable on it. Half of the 3 lettuce leaves I stir fry without seasoning.

6:43pm - Ah. It seems thea adult employers are going to eat. The mother came to hear the pan. They must steam something. I'm not sure. I will wipe the plates and put them on their respective holders. 😋

7:14pm - the adults are eating. Their food delivery got late. So I eat first. Hehe. And here I thought they already ate so I can rest early. Aiya, I have to wait for them. And with the way things are going they would be done by 8 or 9. But why am I sleepy. I sleep early last night. Before 12 I already doze off. I got awaken at midnight and at 4 then 5 and finally had to stand up at 6:30. I felt refreshed but why am I sleepy right now. This is weird. I didn't even clean the teen's room and cr. Yet my eyes are dropping. Aigoo, I will try to take a nap. Hopefully I can have a power nap. But that will make me feel heavy tomorrow. Aigoo. I should have sleep over last Saturday. I actually want to sleep for the whole day on my day off but that's not going to happen. Ah, my stomach will definitely feel painful in a while. I'm farting more and more. Cause I ate hastily a while ago. I could even feel the food passing through my stomach. Haha. Oh dear, my eyelids are closing in. This is bad. I can't go walk around. The employers are all there. Tsk. This is the disadvantage of being in an apartment instead of a house. A mansion would let me walk for my digestion. Not here. I'm closing my eyes. Hell this is bad.

8:58pm - I'm done. I used short videos on YouTube to wake me up. But now I'm drowsy again but my mind won't shut down. ✌️✌️✌️ The cause of the numbling pain on my toe finally appear. I took out a thin small piece of ingrown. Heck, that tiny piece caused me a month of misery. Now I can feel my left toe. There isn't anymore tingling sensation. Ahahaha. The kid told me he trip a bit and sprain his foot. He showed me his toe. I can't recall if that's the right or left. Now by luck my toe is good. Ah. I hope this gets better. But I'm starting to worry again. Because whenever things get better, something bad always follows. Aish. If I go to the immigration next week Monday, hopefully nothing than being given visa would happen. Ah. Last time I pray I wouldnt be allowed but now I pray differently. Cause once my visa isn't allowed then I can only go home. Or I can go to Hong Kong to exit and be given 20 days visa. I'm not actually sure. Aiya. Que sera sera. Whatever will be will be. I am living for myself now. I shouldn't worry over my brothers. I already made my part. They are now on their own. I have to be selfish now. Consider only my own future. Pay the debts, save a start up capital and if there are excess then build a house of my own.

Oh dear. I'm stuffed. I would have gerd again if I go to sleep directly. And it would be another fits of painful morning. Urgh. Tomorrow is Monday. It's school day so I have to get up early and prepare the water, bags and shoes. I leave the food and others to the mother. The father wakes the kid up. Not me. Yepey. Winsy used to wake and dress the kid up but when I came the kid was shy and didn't like it. So that's lesser work for me. Hehe. Although I have to make sure the uniforms are washed and ironed. Can't repeat the last time. Ah, the jacket. I need to put that in his bag. But I can't see it now. I don't even know where they put it. It's not on the shelf at their room. Aigoo. Let's see tomorrow if it will appear. Aish, my eyes are closing. I better sleep sitting down. Else I get acid burn.