Dear Phil [Phan]

23/12/10

Dear Phil,

Merry Christmas, Phil! I hope Christmas is fun over there. Do you get each other little gifts? What did you get? I'd love to send you gifts but they sent an email saying we weren't allowed to send anything that wasn't a letter. So here I am. This is our first Christmas without each other since we met. And I'm not enjoying any second of it. I want to be with you, hold you, sit with you while we open our presents. I feel like shit for not being able to send you anything. But I guess you understand. I'm going to sneak in a small Dairy Milk Little Bar for you. Please enjoy it. Don't share it with any of your friends. I know you're so kind-hearted and you'd share your last ounce of food if it would help someone else, but please, eat it by yourself. I want it to be just our little secret.

Its getting harder and harder to remember your voice. I know I'll hear it again soon and I'm just being too exaggerated, but I miss it a lot. I miss every inch of you. And I don't mean that in a phallic sense (although it's been 8 months, can you blame me?). I just want to be able to hold you again.

There are not enough words in the English language to express my love for you.

I love you always,

Dan