Introducing Melody of Love and Pain, an emotional journey of heartbreak and healing. Escape into the harmonies of heartbreak that weave a masterpiece of melodic emotion, bringing you back to the beauty of love.
(THIS BOOK IS BROKEN INTO THREE PARTS)...
I finished my hair as I was combing through it listening to faint music, voices talk and laugh out in the living room. It was Amara's first Christmas and my first Christmas without my mother so I was a little emotional. I cried earlier this morning when cooking but I thought about Amara and eventually stopped. Mary-Anne, Jasmine , Cassie, Travis their son Chris, my grandmother and Rocky were all here for Christmas so the house was definitely filled with nothing but love.
I looked at myself in the mirror contemplating on if I was going to put make up on or not along with a dress and some heels, I was already doing a lot just me doing my hair. This was the first time in months I've even looked presentable in my opinion. I was really going through it, still kind of going through it. There were days where I wouldn't even get out of the bed. if it wasn't for my hairstylist placing braids in my hair once I was discharged from the hospital, I don't know what I would look like. And Although I wear baby lashes, jasmine had me get my lashes and eyebrows done the day before Amara came home just so I can take the steps to get back where I was at before everything happened.
The album that was supposed to be released the end of this year has been postponed because my label and I felt I needed some time off between the situation with Adonis in recovery, me having the baby and losing my mother, they felt it was best I waited til I was ready. The fans understood completely and supported me along with industry friends who would text it call just to make sure the family and I was good. Do I was grateful for that as well.
I decided to get dressed in something comfortable and something I can easily breast feed Amara in for when she was hungry. I slipped into a black, long sleeve, stretchy dress and sprayed some perfume on my body. And stood in the mirror placing some simple stud earrings into my ears.
I looked over at myself in the mirror fixing any fly aways in my hair.
Oops! This image does not follow our content guidelines. To continue publishing, please remove it or upload a different image.
Oops! This image does not follow our content guidelines. To continue publishing, please remove it or upload a different image.
I then smoothed out my dress and decided I was just going to walk around with slippers on because I wasn't feeling shoes right now. "Baby girl you good? It's been an hour" I heard Donnie say coming into the bathroom as I looked at him through the mirror. "Yeah this is the best I got" I admitted turning around. "And You look beautiful" he complimented as I faintly smiled. "I don't feel up to getting dressed up yet" I added as he nodded "I know we can try new years but you look beautiful the way you are" he assured while looked over my body.
