Second Chance

Chapter 4

Edited

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Hanbin's POV

Today I will be the official Alpha for Bluemoon pack. My dad seriously didn't trust me to lead this pack, which is why I'm on trial for the past 2 years. He told me to straightened up, whatever that means. I never wanted to be a jerk, but apparently people don't think I'm cool enough to be Alpha if I don't have the badboy behavior, I think. I know why I'm so bitter though, it's been 2 years since I'm 18, but I haven't found my mate yet and it's so frustrating.

My dad said that it's either she's not in this pack or she's not 18 yet. In some cases though, even if your mate is not 18 yet, you know or feel that they're your mate. It's just that they can't feel anything towards you yet. Suck, I know. The main reason I invited a lot of people today is because I want to find my mate, I'm positive I'll meet her today although the Redblood pack won't be here. Being the strongest pack means that the Redblood pack always got missions from the elders. Be it to fight off the rogue or train other packs that are in need. I met the Alpha once and he's a great guy, his mate was lucky. Yeah, I said was, they said he met his mate when he was 16, I know, that's another rare case, but she died shortly after, killed by rogues, they never mated which is why he still survived. A mated wolf would usually die or go insane when their mate died. After the death of his mate, he trained and trained, which in the end leads them into this powerful pack that no rogues ever dream of messing with.

Anyways, I was supposed to give a list of things to do to Amber. Chanwoo was supposed to get her for me, why is she taking such a long time?

"Hanbin, your mother wants you here" My dad mindlinked me

"Why? I need to give a list to Amber" I replied

"Help me here son, you know how she is if we didn't do what she asked" He said causing me to chuckle. My dad is a great Alpha, scared of his own mate, which is my mum

"Fine, I'm giving the list to Jiwon and I'll be there in a sec" I said

"Jiwon, come to my office" I mindlinked Jiwon

Few minutes later he enters my office

"What's up bro?" He asked

"I need you to help me with one thing. In a few, Amber will be here to fetch this list, give it to her will ya?" I said and then rush out before my mum kill me.

My parents doesn't live in the pack house with us, they have other house not so far from the pack house so I was there the whole time and only went back shortly before the party started to take a shower and wear my clothes.

When I went downstairs and actually look at the place, I was amazed. Amber does know what she's doing, I should stop beating her for a while. I never like doing that, it pains me whenever I hit her, but I have to. People want me to. When we were little, I have a crush on her. I know, it's crazy, with his brother being my best friend and all. And then their parents died and everybody blamed her. I thought it was stupid, she's only 8, she doesn't have the capabilities to do such a thing. There's clearly a rogue there, so it wasn't her fault. But when I tried to defend her, everybody keeps on teasing me, saying that I like her and it's somehow embarrassing, so to cover it up, I bullied her and at one point, it just got out of control and I started hitting her and every time I did, I hate myself for it. She's so beautiful, but of course I wouldn't say that to anyone, ever.

Few hours later, the party is going great but no sign of my mate yet. It's so frustrating. I excuse myself for some fresh air, so I went to the back of the pack house. It was a few minutes later that I felt someone standing behind me and I smell the most amazing smell ever.

"Mate! Mate!" my wolf exclaimed happily

"I found you" I said without turning

"After 2 years of looking, I finally found you" I continued

It was silent but I could feel her behind me. So I turned around causing her to gasp. She's so beautiful, like an angel. She's got a beautiful figures and she's so flawless. But, wait a minute, is she? Oh god, it's Amber, my mate is Amber Jung? It's a dream comes true, the only girl I ever have feeling for, is my mate. I'm filled with happiness but, what would my pack said? They would hate me for it.

"You?!" I said with as much disgust as I could

"What the hell? Is this some sort of sick joke?" I continue

"There's no way I am mated to you. Hell no." I said again. Every word is painful for me to say

"But- but, I- uhh, what?" she stutter

"I don't want you." I said reluctantly

Her face drops and tears fall from her eyes. I have to do this. I don't want to be hated by my pack if she's my mate. Judging from her face, she knows what I'm about to do.

"No" she begs

"Please no" She said, tears falls freely on her beautiful face

"I, Kim Hanbin, Alpha of the Bluemoon pack, reject you, Jung Amber as my mate"

She screamed in agony and few seconds later, she fainted but I caught her before she could hit the floor.

"I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry" I said, I feel myself crying

The only reason I didn't feel as much pain as her is because she didn't reject me back. I really hope you forgive me one day, Amber. I kissed her for the first and last time ever, gently putting her on the floor and left.

Yes, I just left her there, lying on the floor in the middle of the night. I went to my room afterwards and drink a lot that I feel myself passing out.

"I'm sorry Amber, I love you, I'm sorry"