Young Love

Chapter 7: Former Club

"Morning" I said walking into the changing rooms

"How was your night?" Beth asked, less looking up seeing how I was gonna answer it

"Yeah alright, didn't do much really" I shrugged

"Didn't you go to Lessi"s house?" Leah asked

"Yeah for a little bit" I shrugged, not missing the hurt in Alessia eyes

"Do anything interesting?" Beth asked

"Watched a movie and that was about it"

"Right come on girls, out for training" Kim said

I walked out with Beth as we carried on our conversation, Leah and Alessia behind us.

It's been a while since training finished, we had all had some food and finished the game preview and now making our way home to pack our bags and get ready to travel up to Manchester tonight.

Everyone had left when I came into the changing rooms, having had to talk to the physios about slight ache I had from training

Alessia was sat at her cubby on her phone, looking like she waiting for something

I walked over to my bag and started to pack up my things, not saying a word to Alessia

After a while Alessia stood up and walked over to my half of the room "Can you just stop ignoring me!" Alessia said annoyed

"I don't know what your talking about Alessia" I said coldly

"That! That's what's I'm talking about!" She came closer

"I 'aven't done owt" I turned around to face her

"This is the first time today you even looked at me, what have I done Harley!"

"Your being silly Alessia, of course I've looked at you" I shrugged

"Certainly the first time you've talked to me today!"

"I've been busy, sorry" I shrugged again

"Why did you play last night off like nothing happened?"

"Nothing did 'appen"

"Why you trying to ignore the fact we nearly kissed!" I winced at her words

I've never been good with my sexuality, don't get me wrong I've accepted the fact I like women but when a girl mentions stuff like kissing or some sort like that why does it make me feel so uncomfortable? Like I'll happily show affection to a girl but once they say the actual words it makes me wanna wince? Is that even got anything to do with my sexuality or some sort of affection that might make me uncomfortable?

"Because!" I snapped after getting wound up with the thoughts in my head

"Because what harls" less said softly

"Because I- I'm nerves and guess don't want to accept the fact we nearly kissed"

"You didn't want the kiss to happen?"

"Yes I did but I guess I closed off, I've never been good with my feelings and I don't want to mess anything up or cause any tense between us, i mean like what if I got the wrong idea from it and it became awkward?" I rambled

"I know but you choosing to ignore me could have made it awkward if I didn't come and confront you about it" less said not in a judgmental way

"I guess I just freaked and did the first thing that came to mind"

"Please don't feel like you cant come talk to me about things like this, i would have respected you if you told me how you were feeling and helped you through your thought thinking and would have kept it between us" less said softly