I should have known that's friends with benefits was a stupid idea.Casually having sex with someone who I didn't like in the slightest is weird. So Danielle should have gotten the hint when I accepted without hesitation....Well, When I did accept she was an emotional wreck so maybe she just worried about getting under someone (me) to get over someone else (her ex, who in fact cheated on her).
I'm fucking screwed and not in a good way.
I swear it was an accident. But Dani was hurting badly and I couldn't let her keep saying horrible things about herself, because they were not true. I remember saying something like "I'll always be there." and before I knew it we were making out on her couch. Of course, gay ass wouldn't stop her because obviously I'm in love with her, and she was the one who initiated it.
Dani lazily traced shapes onto my sweaty skin. Her fingertips traced the outline of my abs as she rested her head in the crook of my neck. We were both heaving trying to catch our breaths. She placed small sweet kisses on my neck and jaw. "Was it good?" she asked as she trailed her hand up from my stomach to my shoulder never removing her face from my neck. I place my hand on hers "The best" I whisper.
She pops her head up looking at me. "Did I do good" She innocently asked as she placed her thumb on my lips. "Of course Dani" I look at her. She giggles and leans down to kiss me. I don't stop her. We kiss for a little while.
After we finish kissing Danielle rests her head on my chest. I sigh, what am I doing? I'm just making things harder for myself. "I can't do this anymore," I whisper.
"What?" Danielle looks up at me with her big brown eyes. She furrowed her brows in a way that she couldn't possibly be hearing the right thing "I didn't hear you. Can you repeat that?" she smiles. This is getting dangerous.
"I should get going," I say as I start to get up from her bed. But before I walk off she grabs my arm. "Wait Y/N" I face her "Stay." she bites her lip "I can make breakfast. Well it's gonna be more like a brunch" she giggles still holding onto my arm.
This is not a good idea, it's just going to make me fall in love with her even more. It's hard to continue something like this when I'm so in love with her but I can't actually have her.
She's all ways giving me mix signals, one day she shows affection like today. She wants to cuddle after sex and she wants to make me breakfast or dinner. It's giving me hope that maybe she actually might like me back and not just want to use my body. But then the next day she's cold as ice. I fall asleep after sex and she goes home without telling me, but instead leaves a note saying 'That was fun! Thanks for helping me get my anger out.'
It's not making sense! Does she want me or does she not? Does she even know I'm in love with her? This false hope is leaving me with so many questions...and I just want them answered...good or bad.
"Why?" I ask as I take my arm out of her hold and start to look for my clothes. "because I want to." she stares at me from her bed
I find my top and underwear "Dani, I don't think that's a good idea." I say as I throw on my clothes. "Why not?" she got out of her bed, still naked if I might add. I was distracted by her perfect body I just wanted to kiss all over it again. "It just isn't," I say as I look away from her and start looking for my pants.
She walks over to me and wraps her arms around my neck pressing her naked body onto my my halfway-clothed one. "Just tell me. I'm your best friend after all." she stands on her tiptoes placing a kiss on my nose. "That's just it...best friends don't do this." I say looking down at her "What do you mean?" she nervously giggled."Best friends don't kiss, best friends don't hug each other like this, and befriends definitely don't fuck"
"Of course, that's why we're friends with benefits" Dani stated as she kissed me slowly. I lift her chin and kiss her back. I feel her smile against my lips. I came back to my senses and broke the kiss. Dani sighed "But even after the friends-with-benefits thing, I'm still your best friend" She smiled and kissed my neck "Don't you ever think that maybe I wanted to be more?" I blurt out. Her hands dropped from my neck. "What? Why would you want that?" she hesitantly asked "Dani! I'm fucking in love with you! Don't you get it?" I clasped my hand over my mouth as my eyes widened. I can't believe I just said that.
"You are?" Her eyebrows raise and her eyes widen. "You know what? Fuck it. Yes, Dani, I'm in love with you ok. I've been in love with you since year 3 of middle school. And you keep doing things to make it worse. Every time we're apart I remember that you said this was just for fun, something to get our feelings out. But I can't, I can't keep on doing this knowing that one day this is all gonna end, and I'll have to watch you kiss someone else, fall in love with someone else. I don't know maybe even marry someone else. What will I do? All these feelings an-"
Dani cut me off kissing me so passionately. I kiss her back wrapping my hand around her waist and pulling her flush against me. My other hand finds a way on her cheek as I close my eyes deepening the kiss. I'm so weak right now and Danielle is the perfect temptation. I felt her smile against the kiss as she wrapped her hands around my neck standing on her tiptoes
"Y/N, I feel the same way," she whispers putting her hands on my cheeks. "Fucking hell Danielle," I say before I pick her up by her thighs and she wraps her legs around my waist. She leans down and kisses me laughing at my reaction. I throw her and the bed hovering over her "Why didn't you say anything sooner?" I kiss her neck "You made me look like a fool." I kiss her lips and smile. "I thought you were cute, being vulnerable like that." she clasped her hands behind my neck.
"Fuck you" I rest my head in the crook of her neck. "You already did. Multiple times." Dani replies I laugh. "Yes, I did! And you loved every second of it" I say laying next to her I watch her playfully roll her eyes "I'm gonna go start breakfast." she starts to get up "You don't have to. Let's just cuddle for a little while," I pat the space on the bed next to me. She gets back into the bed wrapping her arms and legs around me. "Ok," she says.
And we cuddled...for a long time.
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