Ceo's favorite idol (open Ending )

Chapter 14

Nhu pov

I was so shocked that after my performance hia fetched me. He didn't mention anything about the photos that had leaked online. He just kept talking about some urgent gig in South Korea that we had to fly to. He said I should pack my stuff and stay at his place until we leave. I was secretly relieved that he was acting like nothing happened, because I really didn't want to deal with the drama. As long as it doesn't affect our relationship or whatever this is, I'm fine with it.

Two days later the media quite down The paparazzi photos were no longer in the headlines after two days. I had a feeling hia was behind it because while staying at his place he was forever making calls and cussing people out . But we still enjoyed each other's company, so I didn't complain. I also spent a lot of time shopping for stuff I would need in South Korea. Today was the day of our departure. We ended up wearing matching outfits, but I thought it was cute. It made us look like a real couple so I didn't mind. Only if we were...

I try to clear my mind of those fantasies. I know they are not going to happen. I'm only causing myself more pain by holding on to them.I desperately attempt to banish those illusions from my head. I know they are nothing but lies. I'm only tearing my heart apart by clinging to them. I can't give myself false hope.

We had sex uonce and never talked about it. How awkward is that? I mean, I practically ran away from his place the next morning, I basically pulled a bang and dash on him. Sure, we've been acting like nothing happened, just kissing and cuddling here and there, but it's not the same as that wild night we had. I wonder what he thinks of me. Does he want to do it again? Does he regret it? Does he have feelings for me? I wish we could just be honest with each other and clear the air.

I felt his strong hands wrapped around my waist and I instantly recognized him by his scent. He had just come back from the gym and he had a distinctive smell on him. It wasn't a bad smell at all, in fact, I loved it. It made me feel closer to him, like he was marking me as his. I leaned back into his embrace and smiled, feeling his breath on my neck.

"what are you thinking about I've been calling your name for a while" he whispers in my ear, sending a shiver down my spine. I remember our first night together, how he made me feel things I never felt before. "oh nothing much just the travel jitters I guess" I lie, not wanting to ruin the mood. "don't be nervous just think of it as your next big adventure or big break. " he says, kissing me and pulling me closer to him on the bed. To sleep and only sleep. How do I even tell him I want more than sleeping?

He drifts off to sleep in no time and starts to snore quietly. I guess he meant it when he said he just wanted to sleep with me. Literally. I stare at the ceiling and wonder what this means for us. Are we friends? Lovers? Something in between?. I sigh and accepted that I'm officially sexually frustrated.

Should I Google : how do you ask your not really your lover for sex without sounding desperate or slutish?
I shake my head at my stupidity and try to sleep.