Young Love

Chapter eleven- The Feeling

Chapter eleven

Have you ever been so deeply in love with somebody that just the thought of them leaving for a few hours kills you?

The feeling you get deep down that tells you that you are making the worst mistake of your life, but your heart is telling you that you can't breathe without them, and all you want is to hold them so close to you and tell them that you love them all the time.

When you look into their eyes you get so lost you don't even know where you are, with every single touch they give you all your hurt and pain evaporates so fast you feel like it never existed, and its replaced with butterflies flying around inside you, your legs go wobbly instead of being over ran with pain you are over ran with love and happiness.

With every message and every thought you have with off them you get a sinking feeling because you know they aren't there to hold you when you need them or just when you want to sink into the chest, with their arms wrapped tightly around you whilst watching your favourite Disney movie.

But then you remember that the love off your life isn't far away now and every second that passes is one less that you have to wait to have that electrifying kiss and the safe feeling you get when you wrap your arms around each-other.

And not caring what others think, because to you it feels so right, and you would do anything for them. Wishing that you could take the pain away when they are hurting, make them happy when they are sad, and making them laugh so hard it hurts when they are crying.

Being able to run around in the rain, not having a care in the world. Being able to act like an idiot around each-other and not getting embarrassed, knowing that you can grab them in the rain to kiss them feeling the raindrops running down your cheeks over your eyes lips and smelling the clean summers air that surrounds you but you can't breathe it because with every second that you are kissing, you slowly lose your breath.

There is nothing like that feeling, it's so electrifyingly deep inside you, that you are overwhelmed by it, but you are okay because you know that the person you are so deep in-love with feels the exact same way.

The best part of it is knowing that you have somebody that is right by your side weather it's day or night, important or just wanting a chat because you have had a bad day or an amazing one and you just want to share it with them. Waking up in the morning and seeing that they have woken up just a little bit earlier to send you a good morning message that it is so long it takes you five minutes to read it. Or when you wake up in the morning and you roll over to lay your head on their chest but realising that they aren't there, your heart sinks into your feet then your bedroom door softly opens and there they are holding a tray filled with your favourite things, even if it is early morning.

Making up your own secret code signals and sounds to tell each other that you love them to the moon and back a thousand times.

When you notice little things about one another like, when they smile their right side lifts up just a little bit more than the right, or they have a slightly smaller left nostril than the right. Or the way they notice that you always take your right arm out off your shirt first and pull it over your head then off your left.

The way they don't act any different when they are with their friends with you, but you have been with them so much in such a short time that they have become your friends, and the same with friends, before you know it you are all one big group of friends that are closer to you than your next of kin.

You know that you are truly in love with somebody when you can take one look at them and know that they are the person you want to spend the rest of your life with, thorough thick and thin, sickness and in health.

For more than one reason you can tell yourself why the relationship is toxic but there are so many more reasons to why you need them in your life, because you feel like you are suffocating when they are not around.

Every single time they call your heart still drops to the ground and you have a massive debate with yourself whether or not to answer.

You never really know everything about somebody but you're pretty close to knowing, and when they are gone it's like living with half a heart or only having one shoe.

Love is love no matter what. A man and a man, a woman and a woman, or a man and a woman. There is no difference in love. Love just is. Don't be afraid to love.