Right There is My Best Mistake

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Hi loves it's been so long but I am back I will be finishing this story I have a new concept I hope you enjoy.. 💜☁️🌙

Ari's Pov

It's been about two almost three months since Sean and I broke up .. The statement that was released was all his idea, saying that it was because we were both on tour. When really it was because of how flirty I was being to Justin when he was joining me on stage. We even did ALAYLM I of course did my baby's part, I mean why not I know every word. It was hard not being able to have him here when I needed him. So we drifted apart the last time we saw each other was when I had my show in Texas.

After not being able to woke with each other's schedules we decided to end it and I started to pay extra attention to one of my dancers a lot more.
I ended up even unfollowing Sean on Instagram I was just honestly trying to get his attention but he want even paying me no mind. I deleted some captions but kept the pictures which says a lot. I would go watch his performances from his tour after my shows.. I would compose this whole tweet to him and not send it .. It would just sit there. I got to the point where I started to actually feel alone on tour so I kidnapped ( not really )my best friend Alexa to have someone with me who knew me better then I knew myself.

Once Alexa came on tour with me it helped me a little especially after our talk.

Alexa: so how are you really doing since your break up ? And don't lie because I know you and can tell..

Ari: I have been okay I guess.. I have been just using Ricky to feel that void for now I know it's not right to put him In That place .

Alexa: it's far from right, you know that you don't need a man to make you happy. If you are truly happy it will
Show. But why Ricky out of every guy ? Why not jones ? Hell even Justin.?

Ari: I know and I always say I am so happy and to know your truth and worth. When I don't even know how to be myself .. I have been in relationships all my life basically. Why Ricky I don't know just because he is there . You know that jones is just a friend more like a brother to me. Justin that's the last thing I need everyone already thinks we should be together.

Alexa: well now that I am here we are going to to work on that. Oh yeah get dressed we are head out for a night in Paris.

Ari: should I be worried ?

Alexa: you will be fine.. I think ..

That talk helped me but then I started to slowly go back to my old flirty ways with Ricky.. I would post little pic of our feet here and there and tweet out the lyrics that I wrote about Sean and put them in my snap chat.

( Moonlightbae ) I would see some of my fans calling me out and saying that I am a relationship hopper and how Jai was right. Some of the hate got to much so I unfollowed a few acts but I refollowed them.. There was too much drama everyone one was saying that I should be with Sean .. But I know that after my lil diary that I put out there was a lot Ricky action and I slipped up and said I kisses his cheek.

My biggest fuck up was the when I said that. That shit been done, in the diary and my lil rant saying that I was not big Sean's Ex, etc.. It made me look petty.. I woke up to various tweets. But the one thing I didn't expect was ..

1 missed call from Sean

Sean: call me asap

I was nervous not going to lie, I know that it was about that thought , so I released this little rant then I decided to call Sean.

I pressed his contact ... While I dialed..

He finally answered ..

Sean: hello ?

Ariana: yeah you told me to call.

Sean: yeah what the shit I am seeing about you saying your not my ex? And that this shit been done ..

Ariana : sighs it was just what was said in my interview, I didn't mean that you weren't my ex I just was trying to get it out there, that I am my own person..

Sean: so what about this lil statement saying this shit been done.. Is that really how you feel? Then we can act like it.. I am to grown for this childish shit.,

Ariana: no they just were saying so I know you just got out of a relationship but that's not what I said to them. but I did say it in my diary.. I didn't mean in anyway. What do you mean you we act like it.. It's not like that.. ..

Sean: look I got to go to rehearsal but remember we were friends first. But have a good end of your tour.

Ariana: thank you .. Sorry for how it came off and I will remember ..

Sean: bye Ari

Ariana: bye Sean ..

I hung up the phone and cried these are the circumstances we talk. This shit is my fault I hope I didn't ruin our friendship . I actually cuddled into Toulouse and went back to sleep for a little bit .. When I finally woke up for the day I just wanted to be by myself. So I stayed cooped up in my hotel room while everyone else went out ..

My moms room was connected and she came in saw me in bed with both dogs she knew something was up. She didn't ask questions it's like she already knew so she just hugged me.

I get a new text from.. Sean..

Just know I still love you and Care for you ..

Was he trying to make me even more emotionally unstable. I can't handle this today.

I texted back .. Even if it doesn't seem like it it's mutual I promise..

Joan : so I see you two have talked.

Ari: yeah only because of my big mouth.

Joan: well just stop this mess that you have going on with Ricky and Focus on ending this tour and fixing things with Sean ..

Ari: there is nothing really there with Ricky he is just here and I am using him to feel that void.. I clearly can't be single for to long.. I need fix that and work on getting our friendship back. I know he still loves me and I still love him. Just to fix myself at the same time.

Joan: well just know that I raised you to be a independent woman .. So be that woman.. But we need to go eat something .. So let's go just me and you. ..

Ari: that sounds good.. Let do that thank you mom I love you ..

Focusing on me for the first time .. And fixing me .. I will do it

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